[tmtranscripts] Ham on opening the inner self to God

David Schlundt david.schlundt at vanderbilt.edu
Thu Oct 2 08:22:33 PDT 2003

Ham 09-28-2003

Greetings, children, I am Ham and I am happy to be with you this
evening. Often we have spoken concerning the life of the spirit, and
again we wish to speak of this broad and profound topic.

Many people spend their lives within the realms of mind and matter
without often venturing into the spiritual realm of life. The venturing
forward sometimes can involve many steps forward and many steps back
before you may be comfortable functioning in the spiritual dimension, in
the realm where you and exposed completely to the benevolent scrutiny of
higher mind and higher soul. This consciousness of exposure can be
frightening and difficult to adjust to. Most human beings continue for
long periods with a kind of secret compartment where things are not
exposed or shared with God, but this state of affairs cannot continue
indefinitely and one must make the decision to open everything, to share
everything, to confide everything to God, that loving, understanding,
friendly and respectful spirit who stands ever ready to share everything
He has with you.

When you share your life with God, when you open the inner compartments
of your heart, when you stand exposed to the high beam of the Father's
gaze, you will find that you have nothing there that is so shameful,
nothing that is so frightening that the Father will not understand and
begin to allow you to understand. Most human beings have parts of
themselves that have remained locked away for a long time, so that the
person himself does not understand what lies within. But usually, it is
a wonderful part of yourself that is hidden, it is something that the
Father wishes to nurture and grow that has been stunted and held back by
some secret shame of fear. Once this guilt of guilt-syndrom of shame and
fear is removed, that part of you can being to grow again, can begin to
seek the Father's light and love and can become a mighty branch on the
tree of your life.

Human beings pretty much invariably feel more guilt, feel themselves to
be less worthy and feel that everyone else is ahead of them somehow. You
feel that you have more to feel guilty about than other people, more to
be ashamed of, more to hide away and not let anyone see it - you push it
back into your mind where it is forgotten. But, all things must come to
the Father's light. There is nothing that is hidden that will not be
revealed, nothing that is unworthy of His love, if it is part of you.
The Father's love reaches all human beings eventually. The Father's
reach extends completely through you. There is nothing that is truly
hidden, nothing that can remain so.

Leading a life of the spirit is not an easy road. It is a road that
requires much, it is a road that does not allow you to take any
short-cuts or to re-route your path, for the Father gives everything.
Once you have made the decision to know God and become increasingly
filled with Him and therefore to become like Him, each obstacle must be
gradually pared off, and like Jonah, you may run from place to place,
cross the seas, change jobs, spouses, towns, and you will find at each
new place the same sets of problems, the same repeating cycles of
behavior until you open those inner boxes and reveal the things that are
hidden to your self and to God. The Psalmist wrote, "create in me a
clean heart, Oh Lord," and this sincere longing must be true for every
person who desires to know God completely and without reservation.

The Psalmist of long ago, asked God to come into his heart, to open up
the hidden places and to purify and cleanse those things which are
impure, those things which are like a secret sin that has been locked
away from God. "Come into my heart, clean away all those things which
require cleansing, change my feelings, my attitude, my ideas, my life.
Create in me that which reflects Your spirit." This is truly the way of
the spirit, these are truly the steps along the pathway. To truly enter
the Kingdom of God as the Master put it, you must allow all cleansing,
you must allow all that serves you not to be left outside, you must be
willing to be born again, to see life with new eyes and to live life
thereafter with a clean and pure heart. Now, this is not to say that the
cleansing process itself is instant, or that you will not find need of
periodic cleansing after your first experience, but you are willing to
allow this, you are willing to stand naked before God with nothing
hidden, nothing set aside that will be brought back. The delight in
righteousness that we often speak of, comes with this process. Your
moral sense will be deepened and broadened, your love for others will be
limitless, you patience and understanding will expand and you will
delight in finding yourself a human being on a small planet, on the
outer edges of the universe, just beginning a great and eternal life.
The spirit itself will instruct you. It is not enough to follow moral
laws themselves, but rather to expand your own moral sense in ways that
the Father will show you, in new ways, in exciting chapters of your
life. Be willing my friends to open your hearts completely everyday and
ask the Father to create a clean heart within you. Are there questions
at this time?

Q: Do you have any counsel for me tonight?

A: Yes my son, you are doing very well. Many new and exciting chapters
are opening for you. Your life will undergo some changes, some
restructuring, and you must have faith in yourself, and that the Father
has placed these responsibilities on you for a purpose. So when you
discharge your responsibilities to others, you will be discharging your
responsibilities the Father himself and to the Master himself. The work
that you have completed during this process of opening and cleansing has
been extremely valuable. You are coming to have love and compassion for
yourself, where before there was guilt, shame and feelings of
unworthiness, feelings of being unworthy of the Father's love and His
gentle guidance, but now you are past his, you are becoming attuned to
His guidance and attuned to your teacher's gentle prodding. All of this
will be a great benefit as time goes on and your stature in the world
gradually comes to reflect this knowledge of worthiness and the
cleansing of the past, with its associated feelings continues. Remember
that each day, your life is new and each day you can make new decisions
that effect the days to come. Be unafraid of all these things, for this
is part of the godly life. Is this helping?

Q: I would also like to know if you have anything for me.

A: Yes, my son, you are also doing well. Likewise, your life has been
changing and you also have been going through a cleansing process. You
have always had a great urge to be self-expressive, to rebel against the
tried and true and to strike out in new ways, some of which have been
good for you and some, of course, have not been good for you. But these
things are simply the path of your life and so have been necessary for
your learning. All of you have had difficulties, hard roads and
difficulties making adjustments and changes necessary, but my son, you
have been ever more willing to make those changes, to adjust yourself to
change the old thinking and become new, to become re-born. When the
Master used this phrase, this re-birth, he meant it to be taken very
seriously because going through this process can be tumultuous, like a
stormy birth, but thereafter, your life changes, your focus changes,
your values change and what you want out of life is altered. This is
what you have been experiencing the last few years, a re-directing of
your will, so to speak, an aligning of your will with the divine will,
the Father's will for you in life. This is not to say that every little
thing will reflect the Father's great desire for you, all of life is a
mixture. For within life there are things which are the Father's will
and things which are not necessarily the Father's will because of His
allowing each human being freedom, freedom of will. So don't get caught
up in the details, but keep your eyes focused on where you're going, and
let the details take care of themselves. Focus on the grand scheme,
focus on Eternal life and you will find the way here will straighten and
become more certain.

Q: inaudible

A: Yes, my daughter, you are doing very well, and you are coming through
into a new era of your life. The struggles you have had with
understanding God over the past year have been profound, and have
created within you a much deeper thought process concerning the nature
of reality and life; why we are here and so forth. Life is brief, much
too brief for most human beings, but during this life, you must come to
a kind of peace with God and as yet you have declared a truce, but have
not as yet partaken of His peace completely. The profound sadness still
wells up, but it does not prevent your spiritual growth, does not change
the direction of your growth, it does not limit your growth. Sometimes
people get caught in a cycle of thought that seems to go nowhere, but in
reality, it is more like a spiral, and as time goes on, that thought
expands and encompasses more and more. This is what you are
experiencing, this expanding of that cycle. It's still okay to think of
yourself, to think of your own healing. It's alright to put that first
and to go through what is required. All is well, my dear, be at peace.

Q: May I ask for a message for Jim?

A; Of course, my son you do very well. This lesson in many ways, is very
pertinent for you this week. You are always considering the past as well
as the present and this process continues as you grow and change and
develop. The old answers don't always satisfy anymore, the old way of
seeing and being does not always work when so much change is required,
so much adjustment. So continue to create an open heart and to follow
the Father's leading, wherever this may take you, intellectually and
emotionally as well as physically. Be unafraid of change.

Q: inaudible

A: Of course my daughter. Yes, you are continually rearranging the
furniture within yourself to always be pleasing to God, but real change
is upon you, real spiritual movement is occurring. And so the old room
no longer suffices when all things are new. Go ahead and embrace this
inner change, this realignment and allow this leading, this spiritual
impetus to rearrange the past, to sort through it, without your having
to do so yourself - if this makes sense to you. Some things are best
left to their own unconscious devices. Allow the Father to rearrange and
sort through and make sense of for you, and then allow these
realizations to come to you, rather than trying to wrench them before
they are completely flowering in your consciousness. So be at ease, my
daughter, for you do very well.

Q: Anything for Rebecca?

A: Yes, my daughter you are doing very well. Many things are opening in
your soul, many new growth is occurring, many new flowers are beginning
to bud and to bloom. Find that assurance that will ground you in this
process so that your roots go deep and have a firmness, a deep, solid
grounding in life and in thought.

My son, you must not worry concerning these changes in your partner.
These things will bring you closer, these life-levels that you each must
traverse together, will bring you great joy and great happiness. You, my
son, are doing very well. You have consistently fulfilled all
requirements. You have generously and completely tackled all effort
required. You have held nothing back in your search for God. Your
achievements have been greater than you know. Your impact in the world
has been much greater than you understand and your work is still in its
infancy. All of you must understand that your lives are just at the very
beginning, whatever your age in years, however long your lives extend in
the physical plane, is tiny, and when you awaken in the new life, in the
new world, then the real work begins. Most of what you do here is
preparation, it is the initial tilling of the soil and sowing of the
seed. The harvest is in the next life. This life is too short for you to
see the fruition of all that you do and all you have done. Be at ease,
therefore my son, in all things. Everything goes very well. Be assured.

Q: Charlie Beyer asks: Ham, In several weekly progress reports to me,
you noted quite correctly that I have to move beyond certain "thought
patterns" which have become obstacles that I must deal with in order for
me to move ahead. To be honest with you, Ham, one big problem I've been
trying to deal with as I am growing older is the realization of my
mortal frailties....I realize we all age, and often we don't all age
very well....Yet, I also realize that our world experienced the default
of Adam and Eve and we Urantians have been deprived the biological
upliftment of our race which would have occurred if we had received the
adamic blood. My "obstacle" is that I feel the heavenly powers who
control and administer our world continue to deprive us of these
biological upliftments, and I can't get over the fact that they don't
offer us more hope and help in this area. For instance....On a normal
world, which was not deprived of the adamic blood, the people often live
to be 500 years old, which gives them plenty of time to commune and
eventually fuse with their adjuster during their normal lifetime...Yet,
here on urantia, our short lifespans do not afford us that same
opportunity....Plus we are plagued with a host of diseases that often
cut our lives off even more prematurely. Anyway.... In a recently posted
transcript, which noted the graduation of mission member Bill Kelly,
Monjoronson (our world's magesterial son) revealed that a
"morontial/material blending process" is in the works which is intended
to biologically uplift those of us living on Urantia. Monjoronson said:
"The blending of the Morontial/Material process is truly a gift that
will help lead Urantians into a more spiritual awareness and growth
beyond your present understanding.....I look forward to answering your
questions in-group form or individual through you circuit connection.
Understand that anyone who wishes for greater spiritual understanding
with their Thought Adjuster and the upliftment of Urantia are welcome to
this process." My questions to you, Ham are: Is this transcript from
Monjoronson accurate?

(Other questions followed, but were not read aloud)

A: My son, let me help your understanding. All spiritual growth, all
spiritual growth, involves the blending of the spiritual and the
material and helps to create the morontia soul. This soul, this blending
of the two, does have some repercussion with the physical. The Master
said, "the well of health will spring up within you. This is what he
spoke of, this blending of that which has perfection, the spirit, with
that which is imperfect: matter. This is not to say that your lives will
be dramatically extended or that you will avoid disease or that the
aging process will not continue. All these things are part of life, all
these things will happen. The physical body is wrought with problems
because it is a material construct. You cannot expect, no matter how
much spiritual growth you have achieved in life, to avoid the problems
associated with bodily aging. These physical problems, these things
which enforce a change of lifestyle, that perhaps force a slowing down,
a reassessment of life, these things are not necessarily bad for the
spirit. Going from being robust and seemingly indestructible in the body
to limited physical activities and frailties; these things are humbling,
these things are spiritually valuable and so it perhaps is not wise that
they be avoided entirely. Each person must strive to come to a place
where every day is a gift, every step in life is valued and treasured
and aging confers these gifts on humankind, confers wisdom and a sense
of fragility in life, which makes it more precious. All these things are
part of a growing in wisdom, they are becoming now a part of your
spiritual growth. Welcome them, then, make the necessary adjustments,
strive for the spirit and gradually relinquish the material. Anything
left undone in this life, can be done in the next. You do not lose
anything by death, but you rather gain that next step, gain the very
valuable consciousness of death, a ver valuable understanding of your
life as a whole after your death, and your life as it shall extend. Do
not worry concerning whether this or that transcript is accurate or not.
Take from each what is valuable to you. Take from each what speaks to
you, what deepens your sense of the spirit, but do not make the mistake
of expecting magical solutions or miraculous healings, for as an
agondonter, you must live entirely by faith.

Q: Message for Norbert, please.

A: My son, be at peace. Life is not as complicated as you sometimes tend
to make it. Some things simply are, without too much complex
origination. Learn to be accepting of that which is, without being
resentful against that which was. The day is now. The time is yours to
change what you can, to grow as best you can and to deepen your
understanding as best you can each day. Rest in complete assurance that
no man carries more than he is able. The Father gives you that which you
can carry, not more and not less, so be grateful for what is, and be
grateful for what you can learn.

Are there any further questions at this time? In that case, my children,
go in peace. My love and prayers go with you each. Farewell.

David G. Schlundt, Ph.D.
Associate Professor of Psychology
Department of Psychology
Vanderbilt University
301 Wilson Hall
Nashville, TN 37203

Phone: (615)322-7800
Fax: (615) 343-8449
Email: David.Schlundt at Vanderbilt.edu
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