[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 1.16.06

JERRY LANE nytrayn at msn.com
Wed Jan 25 19:48:13 PST 2006


Dear Folks, Sorry for the delay in transcribing and editing. Enjoy!
Jerry.

Nebadonia—January 16, 2006

Marin T/M Group—Mill Valley, California—U. S. A.

NEBADONIA—T/R-JL

(Truth and reality)
(Truth and knowledge)
(Truth and freedom)
(Visualization)
(Truth and human reality)
(Truth and self-questioning)

Dear Mother and Michael, Tonight we want to thank You for pointing the
way, for being our forward scouts out into this new territory of faith for
us. We treasure Your ability to cut right through to the spiritual heart of
our questions, then pay us the respect of being very direct and frank with
us. In this You give us wonderful examples of what a true friend is. Amen.

Good evening, My sons, this is Nebadonia. Being your Mother Spirit, I too
welcome the feedback you give Me, and I cherish the love in your words. I
have a mother’s heart that strives to be wise with My children, and I am
glad you recognize this is, at times, what you call tough-love, which is
after all the realization of the importance of truth. You know that
wonderful saying: You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you
free.

(Truth and reality)

To your modern minds another good word for truth is reality--that which is
real, that which actually exists. You are all striving to be fully
existential, and you will slowly achieve this, though it may take
uncountable millions of years. For in this dimension too, My children,
there is no limit. Even after you become pure spirits and leave our Local
Universe to head out into your galactic adventure, still you will be just
starting that phase of your existence. There are many, many steps to go
before you achieve a final existential existence, and become what is
appropriately called a Finaliter in the Paradise Corps of the Finality.

Starting out as a nodule of experience--a focal point of personality in time
and space, in time you will finally become final: and then, of course, there
are six more galaxies to go out and explore. This is the nature of your
present existence and potential. As your Urantia book assures you, and so
have We, you are already existential in the very fact of your existence. In
this one aspect you are already absolute, for your personality is a creation
of God the Father. And so as you strive for truth in order to be free, what
exactly is it you are being free from?

(Truth and knowledge)

This is the qualitative difference between knowledge and truth. Knowledge
is a possession. It is what you have earned and, when you think about it,
your increasing wisdom tells you that knowledge, or facts--physical facts,
correlated and organized in meaningful ways by your mind; all these have
truth within a fairly small and circumscribed context. Truth Itself is just
the largest conceivable context, which, by definition, can never be a
possession. God alone possess truth because God alone, shared only with the
other absolute members of the Trinity, is Truth; is the fullness of reality;
is the sum total of all existence. Yet for we subordinate beings who can
never hope to possess truth, we can revere it as an orientation. Whereas
you can never have truth as you have facts, or understand meanings--and be
relatively confident in their application extending on into the future;
still truth can be your orientation and serve as a humbling reminder that
there is always something more. The context of your existence is like the
horizon, always out there surrounding you, encompassing you. From a
spiritual standpoint, you can slowly achieve a near absolute confidence in
the existence of truth, even though you cannot hold it, you cannot possess
it. True enough, this is, at your stage of existence, very much a matter of
faith. For in this sense it is inseparable from your inner convictions of
the reality of God himself. So it is not something you can ever prove to
anyone else. Neither God nor truth can be empirically demonstrated like a
mathematical theorem, or the laws of chemistry and physics.

So how is it that you can rest, assured within yourself of your faith in the
existence of truth? How can you know that you are contained within it and
that it does exist? And I’ll ask again, what is it truth liberates you
from? Let Me suggest that the liberation is from the illusion that you can,
or you have already possessed truth itself--the illusion that you are
somehow capable of being perfectly objective, or that your knowledge and
understanding already have no limits.

We looked at this once before in it’s social and political implications, how
certain individuals in power, cherishing an inner illusion that they know
what is absolutely right and correct, have all through history perpetrated
the most obscene horrors on their fellows. We’ve also looked at a general
trend of maturity being a matter of ever so slowly but certainly getting the
inner self-confidence to let go of these illusions of generalities and
prejudices, so you can experience the truth of the infinity of every other
personality you encounter.

(Truth and freedom)

So if this is the truth, My children, if every other personal being of
whatever kind bears the hallmark, the stamp if you will, of God’s hand in
their creation; if this is the truth and you are able to see it, you are
able to experience other folks this way; what is it you are being freed
from? Isn’t it obvious you are being freed from the enormously
self-limiting illusions of all your generalities, and stereotypes, and
prejudices? These are small, constraining contexts that some folks might
live their life within and never touch the reality, never experience and
possess the enormous wealth of all these other wonderful souls that are
possible to know.

What a waste of living to have never lived, to have never truly known
another--soul to soul. This is why those who are not able to love and
relinquish themselves to know another, are still living in an untransformed
world. They’ve never experienced how the whole world transforms once you
share it with one other person. You have some rather cynical expressions
such as: Love is blind. But is it? Or is it only that our lovers are
momentarily bedazzled because their whole world has just changed?

Certainly now, things have to settle down after a while. The new world view
has to find its space within all that went before. But what a shame to have
never known this, to have never known the courage of letting yourself be
even a bit of a fool, if necessary, to follow wherever love leads. So we
may have to amend that saying and think of it more as: You shall strive
after the truth and towards the truth, to be free. Then welcome the glory
in the fact that only eternity itself can fully disclose the nature of
truth, which is God himself. This is another meaning of eternity, My
children. This is the path. This is the forever-quest.

Meanwhile, freedom is one of those things you can know for yourself. That
is its nature, and this is your God-given ability, to know it. So when you
seek to evaluate your life, when you ask yourself, how am I doing, be sure
to include this evaluation too. Are you becoming more free? Are you
growing along this dimension? Is your own personal reality opening wider?
Are the people in your life emerging more and more from an amorphous
background? Much further down the scale, but equally possible: Are the
very things in your life slowly growing in value? Are all your curious
little personal possessions gaining soul? This is the path I would set your
feet upon, My children. This is the way in which Michael and I are your
pathfinders out ahead, beckoning you to come this way.

For We assure you that everything I have told you tonight, applies to Us as
well. We too are growing. We too know the truth as an encompassing
surround, the very body of God that holds Us in its loving embrace,
reassuring Us of its absolute existence. You can know this right here and
now through faith. And as being still and at peace within yourself feeds
this faith, so too this faith enables you to be evermore at peace. So
cherish the truth, My sons. At one and the same time you can strive towards
it, and meanwhile be satisfied in your striving, to let yourself be at
peace. Let peace and truth soak right into your bones, into every cell.

This is also your home. This is where your life originates. This is that
living, bubbling fountain suspended right out in the middle of God’s love,
coming from His inexhaustible source. Rest deeply in it, be refreshed. Now
look! Here comes another adventure! Here comes another creation of God for
you that, though you cannot know it beforehand, can nevertheless help you be
free.

Thank You, Father. It is our delight to acknowledge that only You could
have created life in such a way. Amen.

If you have any questions or comments, My sons, let Me hear them. They are
My adventures.

Student: Mother, what is visualization, and how do I do it--especially with
respect with the Akashic Construct? I would like to be involved in that,
and heal people as well as myself, and I have no clue to what visualization
is.

(Visualization)

NEBADONIA: Yes, C, once again you bring Me a term that has many meanings,
in many different contexts. Normal waking visualization is, as we have
looked at before, a combination of the excitation from some external stimuli
impacting your sense organs, such as sight, which are interpreted by your
brain and then, with the powers of your mind, given an objective-seeming
reality which may or may not correspond to the external object. In terms of
consciousness, on the extreme other end of the spectrum, you have your
dreams, some of which you’ve all experienced can seem very realistic at
times.

Occasionally these become what you call conscious dreaming, or being aware
right within your dream that you are dreaming. You can even marvel at the
fact of: I know this is a dream, yet look at how detailed, how real it
seems. But for most people this experience is rare, for this realization
they are dreaming tends to either wake them up if they identify with the
conscious part of it, or they simply loose this self-consciousness and the
dream goes on, more or less unconsciously as usual.

Visualization as it is used in a mystical or quasi-spiritual sense is for
some folks very similar to conscious dreaming. In other words, with their
eyes closed they are able to visualize within themselves to a very
remarkable degree of reality, different aspects of their situation. And so
they are able to visualize spiritual beings, spiritual relationships, which,
very much like normal waking conscious visualization, is a combination of
both objective stimulus and subjective interpretation.

If you wish to do this, My son, I would direct your attention to many
Oriental disciplines that specialize in how to do this, and can lead you
stage by stage through the process. For if it is not just naturally
occurring to you, as it is for some folks, it is a very long and painstaking
discipline, usually starting with simple objects that you try to imagine in
your mind. These you imagine in ever greater detail and then see if you
can’t literally see them within yourself with your eyes closed. In this
sense visualization is like any other mental discipline that you must learn
step by step. But let Me also suggest that there are many other ways of
internally realizing spiritual reality.

We talked tonight about truth and how you can know within yourself and trust
that it exists, even though it cannot be a possession such as a much smaller
fact or meaning. So ask yourself, My son, how do you know anything? How do
you know who you are, or who some dear friend is? How do you know how to
get home tonight? Or further afield, how do you know that Paris, France
exists, or Naples, or Moscow, or Tokyo? There is a whole branch of human
philosophy that looks at this question: How does a human being know?

As we also looked at tonight, how can you get folks to accept the
limitations of their knowledge so they will strive to reach beyond the
pseudo-knowledge of generalities and stereotypes and prejudices? Does this
at least begin to answer your question?

Student: Mother, it gives me a great deal to think about and look at. I
don’t know whether it answers the question or not. (laughter) I was
thinking specifically about the CD that George Bernard has, about how to get
involved in the Akashic Construct. I admire people doing that, and then
healing people, and I’d like to do the same. But I don’t seem to be able to
do it.

NEBADONIA : There is certainly no harm in trying. Any course of study like
this has to be thoroughly embraced with your whole heart and mind and soul
to even have a chance of succeeding. Any attempt like this, if you are
doing it highly consciously and for spiritual reasons, cannot help but give
you some self-knowledge of all the steps you have to go through to be
successful.

But as with any other art, My son, any other creative act, there are
different temperaments among human beings. For example, some great
musicians or visual artists—painters and sculptures—when asked to express
verbally what they are doing, are completely inarticulate, just as some
writers would be lost trying to do more than a doodle in terms of art. It
can’t hurt you to try a specific technique, but don’t feel this is the only
way you can help others heal themselves. This is not the only way to
contribute to another’s health, another’s ability to free themselves by
accepting an ever larger truth of their life. This is the spiritual
friendship you can always offer another right here and now, as you are
today. And this can be done by following your heart. Trust the compassion
that desires you have this greater healing power. Trust this compassion to
show you your own--C’s unique way of healing. Then pray for the nerve to
give it a try. Michael and I, and the rest of your celestial family, are
always right by your side whenever you strive to help another person toward
greater life. Simply let Our love flow through you. But by all means, try
some new techniques. Welcome the self-discovery process this puts you
through. And always: Physician, heal thyself. (laughter)

Student: Thank You , Mother. This last part has meant a great deal and is
very understandable. Thank You once more for being by my side.

NEBADONIA: You are very welcome, My son. I appreciate the good work you
strive to do in, and with, My presence. So be in My love.

Student: Yes, Mother. I have numerous things I’d love to discuss, but
firstly, I was wondering what was—because I’m sure You give this great
thought before You address us, and usually one hundred percent of what You
say to us is significant when we are in Your presence—so I was wondering
what was the deeper meaning? Why was this topic, this idea tonight?

NEBADONIA: My son, you gave Me the compliment in your prayer this evening
of being your pathfinder, and pointing the way. This inspired Me to point
out the largest context I could express to you—the whole concept of truth,
and how it is possible to strive towards it, and the spiritual benefits of
doing so.

Student: Is it not—truth, that is—already established within us; to be, in
a sense, uncovered from our own misunderstandings and fallacies of who we
think we are, and what we identify with—our own illusions?

NEBADONIA: No. (laughter)

Student: But then how do we exist?

(Truth and human reality)

NEBADONIA: You exist because your consciousness is put into a transcendent
vehicle. This vehicle has been all mankind’s study, yet even though you
have libraries of literally millions of books on topics of just, shall we
say, just your physical being, let alone the mental and spiritual dimensions
of being human, this remains still a transcendent encompassing that supports
your consciousness, without which your personality cannot yet experience, or
constantly strive to learn more.

As you just realized, starting out at any moment in time to strive for a
greater maturity, you are freeing yourself from the immature limitations of
your previous concepts and understandings. This is how you grow. But in no
way do you already possess truth. Truth is what surrounds you. Truth is
the God-reality in which you are living. So when you ask, do you not
already have truth, in saying no I was referring to your consciousness--what
you can consciously know, and recall, and use from your memory of your past
experiences. But even in this, you will recall, We have given many lessons
on how to find an ever greater truth in your own past experiences. Because
you do exist here and now, the past itself is a territory for exploration
and discovery. Does this help clarify the situation?

Student: Yes, I guess. It may be something beyond words. I understand
that truth cannot be possessed, but what I meant about what is already
established, is that it’s universal, it’s cosmic, it’s already here, and
it’s up to us to tune into it—to live it.

NEBADONIA: Yes, this is true. It really is God. God is truth. God is
absolute, and infinite, a fully existential Being such as you can only grow
towards. But starting out as you are, somewhat like a tadpole,
(laughter—this is an old joke and tease between D and Michael and Mother
Spirit) you are still 99.9999 percent experiential, My son. Only the fact
of your existence is absolute. As you know there are many, many poor souls
who are in such a state of mind day to day, they suffer enormously,
unbelievably, in doubting their own existence. They can be so deranged this
way they cannot support their existence, but must be compassionately
institutionalized. This is why We say your true home is on the edge of the
unknown, because God and His total creation are beyond the comprehension of
any sub-absolute being. In this sense God is only fully known by His other
absolute associates, the Eternal Son, and the Infinite Spirit.
The only way sub-absolute beings can know Him is through faith. In this you
can all be faith-sons of the living God now, as you slowly, over eons and
eons of time, augment your own existential quotient of being.

(Truth and self-questioning)

Let Me add one further thing along these lines. There is a great difference
between self-doubt and self-questioning. I’ve tried to point out tonight
there is a way you can validly and self-honestly still your doubts as to
your existence, and the existence of truth, and God, and thereby gain the
self confidence, the inner self-assurance that allows you, then, to question
everything you know and believe, in your striving for ever greater truth.
(a long, puzzled hmmm…followed)

I think you know, My son, much of what I say is meant for study. I don’t
expect you to comprehend it instantaneously. (laughter)

Student: I do question my abilities, and why I do—why I believe certain
things, especially when they no longer seem to work for me. Or why did I
believe in them in the first place? Because of something I’ve been told
since I’ve been going to school, or living in society? But truth is
something that is more universal, more—it doesn’t change. It evolves, but
doesn’t change. There’s a depth to it. And as You said, there’s a freedom
to it. Sometimes, and we’re seeing this in our world today, beliefs can be
so binding. Our traditions can be so binding. And there’s no freedom to
them.

NEBADONIA: Well, you’ve just expressed another reason I bring these things
up. To a degree you are identifying with truth. Truth does not evolve: you
evolve. Truth is absolute insofar as God is truth. Truth exists absolutely
and infinitely. We evolving beings grow in our capacity for it, but it is
ever our encompassing. It literally holds us, as God. If you will, it is
the “it-ness” of Him.

Student: Hmmm… I can’t wait to read that. (laughter—Mother Spirit too)
Because I think I only got a little bit of that, but… OK.

I have two more things. One, I was just thinking of about Jesus, and that
if Jesus were here by my side, or face to face--since He is the embodiment
of truth, and love, and all that God is, what would He see in me? And what
would I be open to receive from Him? Because He sees everything I am…

NEBADONIA: This is also something, My son, you have to grow towards. You
have to grow towards who you are because, as We have been teaching, only a
very tiny part of your own soul is available to you in your present physical
condition. The fullness of it awaits the next phase of your life to become
more possible of conscious awareness. The saving grace of your present
physical human condition is that if your are open to it, your own growing
soul can augment the value of your life—to you--more and more.

Let Me further add in our philosophical discussion here, people often
forget, and create a duality between God and reality. They think of reality
as “it,” whereas God remains the summation of personal reality. God is
literally the person-hood, the personality within reality, yet the
impersonal aspect, the non-spiritual part of reality—what you think of as
matter/energy—is however itself a creation of the personal God, and responds
absolutely to His will. And so truth can seem like an “it,” yet it is
simply God’s living nature. I hope that clarifies that point.

Student: Yes, it does! It’s so good—(laughing)--I’m really drinking this
up.

Now this is more personal. I sometimes feel in my relationship with (Name)…
she’s said I’m not getting her. Maybe I’m failing her. I know that’s a
judgement, but that’s what it feels like sometimes. I’m not able, in her
words, to totally support her. And I don’t know if I can, if I have the
means to do that. So our relationship is changing. She’s in the process of
finding a place to live with her boys, and You know how long this process
has been going on. So I’m kind-of in this place of waiting for her to move
out, finding a place. With her progress is slow, and I’m wanting to move
on. So there’s also the sense of impatience on my part; but I also have to
honor where she is. Yet maybe I don’t know what that is—so it saddens me.
I feel I haven’t fully taken her in, and there’s a loss with that.

NEBADONIA: My son, keep in mind that this infinity that another person is
can never be entirely known. It is impossible to take another in fully,
because that implies some kind of ability that is only God’s. Here again we
are looking at a difference between doubting yourself and questioning
yourself. Taking another person in is a thing you strive towards, and you
can usefully question ways in which to do this better, or try to understand
ways you may have done it better in the past; although the past is fixed in
the sense it is no longer amenable to change. The past has to be respected
for the irrevocable nature of it. So we are addressing the self-doubt part
here. I’m letting you know there is a limit to what you can know of
another, and this is that very freedom we’ve talked about--granting other
people their infinity, and not rather arrogantly assuming that you have
totally fathomed them, and so can act in a capricious or absolute manner
towards them. Cherish your own wisdom that lets you accept that fact that
you have not taken another person in—completely. For in doing so you are
avoiding the far greater error of the illusion that you have.

Student: I really understand that. And when she says I don’t support her
enough, I’m thinking maybe it’s beyond human ability to do so. I can’t
support another’s illusions, or irrationality, or dysfunctional behavior;
but I can support and honor another’s soul, and their growth, and their
integrity. And I think I’ve done that—with her. Maybe she needs to go
within herself, and find God within herself, for support. Ultimately.

NEBADONIA: These are good questions you are asking yourself. I can only
suggest you share them as much as you can with her. These are intrinsic
aspects of compatibility, so much a part of your system of values. They are
important to share. Often couples get together, or separate, along these
lines of whether or not they can share their values. Neither is absolute,
and accepting this non-absoluteness is difficult for some people, for they
still have, not only arrogant and self-satisfied notions, but romantic
notions too that everything can be shared and known. Unfortunately—or
fortunately, really--you are both too unfathomable for that. But the hour
is getting late, My son.

Student: That is fine. Thank You… (much laughter)

NEBADONIA: You are very welcome. I’ve definitely given you something to
think about, and study--whenever C and J get it out there.

Student (laughing): I hope You’ve enjoyed this adventure!

NEBADONIA: Oh, I have—very much, very much. I think you know you’re in My
love.

Well boys, let’s wrap this up. It has been quite an adventure this evening.
I’ve thoroughly enjoyed it. You really have taken to heart what I chose
to talk about. It’s a delight to have My children question Me, and then be
so open, and entertain what I have to offer. Neither Michael nor I desire
any kind of blind belief or faith. Rather, We invite you to question Us as
you question yourselves, and each other. At the same time, trust in your
perception of Our presence, for as you are finding out, spirit is most
ungraspable. You cannot literally possess it as you do a physical fact or
mental meaning, but you can very validly be possessed by it, and feel its
love right down into every cell of your body. Spirit is the source of the
facts and the meaning you find in your life. And so We worship and thank
Him--He who is spirit! Be in My love. Good evening.


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