[tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 11.1.04 - Her Reality: Time

[JERRY LANE]

Dear Folks,    There is usually a lot of emotion during these contacts with 
our Creator Father or Mother Spirit, but it was especially so this session.  
At times Mother Spirit gave us much more time with Her in an intense, full, 
expanded stillness than She did in Her words.  I mention this rather than 
put in a lot of "(long pause)'s" or "..."  I think you'll know where.  Jerry 
- Nytrayn at msn.com


Nebadonia 11-1-04

Marin TM Group

Dear Michael and Mother Nebadonia,    Welcome.  And welcome again.  Come be 
with us.  Come share our lives with us.  Michael, so many times You have 
invited us to think of You, and to feel You, not so much as a Creator Son of 
God, Father  of millions of planets, but closer, just as – Dad - and a human 
brother, and an old friend.  Mother Spirit, so many times You have invited 
us to snuggle into Your arms and hold You very, very close to our hearts, 
and toast ourselves in the warmth of Your smile.  So please, feel so welcome 
in our love for You.  Amen.

Mother:  My dear sweet children, you know Who this is.  (Group chuckles)  
This is your Mother.  Thank you for your love.  Just to see your beaming 
faces turned towards Me with such open affection and joyful anticipation of 
what we have to share together -  this is what gives Me so much joy to be 
Me, your Mother.  For you to feel the love and the support with which I 
uphold your lives, then when I feel your free generosity turning this back 
towards me, with the sweet desire to give - this wonderful feeling 
outpouring from our hearts to each other - this is a sweetness beyond words. 
  For as I can feel each of your living beings, your spiritual presence 
glowing in Me like a small constellation of stars, now feel Me all about 
you.  I am the warm, rocking sea in which you are floating.  Let go of 
yourselves, My children.  Now let go of yourselves completely.  You see?  
You’re floating in Me.

Do you wish to go somewhere?  What is your heart’s desire – here?  Just 
float in Me for awhile, My children, and feel everything coming to you.  
This is what the world does.  You can rest in Me.  You can float 
effortlessly in Me.  You can glow in Me like a pinpoint of light.  All 
around you is motion.  Except for this little pinpoint, floating in Me, you 
are in motion.  Can you feel your heart beating?

Just so, some of this motion is approaching.  Some of these are other 
children of God.  Just notice them awhile.  Notice that they are all unique. 
  Notice how they change, and how you change, as they approach.

What is this?  What is this living sea that engulfs both of you?  What is 
this very recognition bringing smiles to your faces?  What is this joy 
leaping in your hearts?  Why are you now in motion, going to greet them, 
without even intending to?

This, my children, is Me.  I am in the arms with which you are hugging them, 
and they are hugging you.  I am in the laughter splashing all around.  I am 
in the sky wheeling about.  I am in the earth rocking gently under your 
feet.  This is My joy.  For this - I came forth: to have My children.  In 
this moment, I and My children are complete.

Yet look! - here comes someone else.  Can you feel your heart beating?  Can 
you feel Me?  Am I roaring through your mind?  Can you feel Michael’s spirit 
singing in your heart?  Can you feel our Father over-shadowing it all - from 
within?

This is our lives together, My children.  It was created to be this way.  We 
live within each other, yet we are individual and unique.

Here is the way to grow, to expand to hold all these precious, unique souls 
that will come our way – forever.  Rest in Me.  Let go into My assurance 
that you have this ability.  It’s a potential you were created with.  It’s a 
part of you.  At any moment you are complete and still - a twinkling point 
of light in Me…

But look! - here comes another…

If you have questions or comments this evening, My sons, it’s your Mother’s 
delight to share them with you, and answer as best as I can.

Student:  Mother, last week Father was mentioning different aspects of time. 
  He specifically mentioned organic time or linear time we create for 
ourselves.  I was just wondering if there are other aspects of time we can 
access in this life?  I was thinking mainly about the Akashic Library.  Is 
this a realistic goal to shoot for?

Mother:  C, My son, this particular term, sometimes called the Akashic 
Record, refers to a dimension of time in the sense of holding events.  If 
you wish, you can think of it as My memory.  The degree to which this is 
accessible to you is dependent on the degree to which you can tune into Me.

But it is not Mine alone.  The past belongs to everyone, in the sense that 
the past is what has happened to everyone.  It this not the true totality of 
past events, everything that has happened to everyone?  You have found in 
your human life, there is a record of your own experience being written by 
our Father himself living in you, which forms an absolute cosmic reality 
forever.  Think also of Universal Reflectivity, which is for you personally, 
more accessible in the many phases of your life to come after you leave 
Urantia.  I mention it, for this too is part of a shared consciousness of 
past events.  There are even personal recording-beings that you can access 
in your life to come.

You can think of these as different dimensions of time, or, if you wish to 
think of time as a single entity, then these are like facets on a single 
crystal.  This, I will tease you with, is a joy to come: to fulfill your 
heart’s desire to know, with respect to certain historical events, what 
really happened.  Does this answer your question, My son?

Student:  It certainly gives me a lot to think about.  I’m not sure I 
understand all of what you said.  I suspect it will become clearer as time 
goes by.  This Akashic Record: is that available to us human beings, or is 
it for the next life?  I was specifically thinking of George Bernard and his 
Akashic Library experiences he’s been talking about.

Mother:  These, like Michael’s and My presence, like the content also that 
your Father’s presence is able to give you - whenever they find expression 
in a specific human language, at a specific time - are both expressed and 
limited by that very language, which acts as a necessary filter expressing 
some aspects and missing others.  This is unavoidable when anything so 
enormous, and alive, is articulated in such a specific way.  Now, when you 
as an individual yourself, read this, you will find that part of it 
resonates within you, and this is somewhat independent of the source.

This resonance will become an addition to your understanding, and this is 
what you will glean, then, from another’s understanding of what is 
essentially a knowledge held by all higher celestial beings.  Do you 
understand this viewpoint of another’s interpretation of the Akashic Record?

Student:  Not entirely.  I do understand that putting it in a specific 
language always limits the expression, but I’m not sure of the rest of it.  
I’m pretty sure it’s going to become clearer as the weeks go by and I ask 
more questions.  I pretty well have to say yes and no - some of it I 
understand, some of it I don’t.

Mother:  This is part of the marvelous ability you have to record these 
sessions and study them over and over.  I, too, am limited by your language, 
and yet if you hear Me, or read Me, with this precious quality of openness, 
you may be surprised at how much seems to resonate all around the words.  
Never forget you have within you a very fragment of our Father, and an 
enormous soul of life experiences, with which you recognize what is true.  
And be in My love.

Student:  Dear Nebadonia, this is along the lines of a curiosity question, 
but it seems that’s what we’re speaking about this evening, a little bit.  
I’m reading a book now about the wonderful patterns in crops in England that 
we call crop circles.  I was wondering if I could be informed a little bit 
more about the morontia devices used to form these circles? – if that is 
permitted.

Mother:  R, My son, My mother’s heart is somewhat torn between answering you 
fully, and yet not disclosing a certain mysterious quotient - or part of 
this phenomena - too soon.

Student:  I understand.

Mother:  There is in the nature of certain effects bring wrought by the 
entire spiritual community of Urantia, something designed, I will admit, to 
tease you, to awaken you, to teach you about a depth of reality that will be 
forever mysterious by the very nature of its enormity.  Ultimately this is 
the reality of our Father himself, and the Eternal Son, and the Infinite 
Spirit.  And so, not only in crop circles, but in almost every other facet 
of your life, you will find there is no bottom, no sides, no top.

That’s why tonight I led you in an exercise of letting go, so that you could 
realize you are a floating focal point, floating in an infinite sea.  I 
think you also realize, in all these lessons past, even in your textbook 
itself, We are ever so careful not to do for you that what you can do for 
yourself.  But again, as your loving Mother, I will admit that We do, from 
time to time, try to tease you out of yourselves.  (Group laughs)  I think 
you can feel the love and the joy involved.

Student:  I would like to say that I’m awestruck by their beauty, just as 
I’m awestruck by much of the beauty that I’ve experienced in my short life 
on this planet.  I just want to put that on the table.  And I’m fascinated 
by the different kinds of mathematics that are involved, and all the other 
electromagnetic fields around them, and the science behind them.  I’m very 
much fascinated.  I look forward to learning more about the reality of the 
universe.

Mother:  Yes, they are beautiful, are they not?  Your seal of approval, My 
son, only emphasizes they are fulfilling their purpose.  Enjoy.  And be in 
My love.

Student:  Thank you, Mother.

Mother:  Well, My sons, I feel it’s been a fruitful evening.  We’ve 
harvested some truth here tonight.  We have reaped some joy in rediscovering 
an infinite, living  web in which we are all held so delicately, yet so 
absolutely securely.  Each moment the living body of God is complete.  Then 
the next moment comes along - by His will.  And so we worship our Father in 
humble gratitude for the enormity of His continuous creation.

Good evening, My children, and be in My love.