FOREWORD

Friends:

It is pleasure that I felt when Gerdean asked me to review and edit her manuscript of Tomas. It took me longer than expected because I kept re-reading and just enjoying His (their) teachings, and for that I am sorry for taking so much time.

As you read this, my friends, I pray and hope you can see the LOVE that is present and felt. That you can glean for yourself the understanding, joy, and comfort that Gerdean has found. That the messages given can find a "home" in your heart.

Much has been left out for personal reasons as I'm sure those of you who have contact with your teachers will understand. But nonetheless, the true meaning of the Father comes through. Read and enjoy and come to know these beautiful children of The Father, your sister and brother..... GERDEAN and TOMAS.

Go in peace. Ken Anderson

February 14, 1993, Valentine’s Day. In the Stillness.

Rain is what you hear in the background. In the foreground you hear words directed through me from Michael, from the Supernals, from the spiritual cousins who share our emotions, our affections and our struggles.

JACK (Secondary Midwayer): Jack here. Greetings, Gerdean. It is a pleasure as always to greet you. It is always a Joy that you seek communications with me or the others, who seek to comfort you, edify you.

It is a simple process to make contact with the First Source and Center, to live so as to hear the words that will encourage you and sustain you on your path. Writing these words is the exact same mode with the exception that you would be juggling a tablet on your lap, an ink pen in your hand, and the visual, too, distracts from the clarity of the connection which makes this flow of truth and love possible.

It would be my pleasure, inasmuch as you trust me, to introduce you to your Teacher Tomas who has volunteered to teach you temporarily in the Albuquerque group and whom you have connected with in your writings before.

TOMAS: Greetings, my daughter and faithful pupil. I am Tomas. I am your friend. I am your companion. And I am pleased that you allow your system to acquaint yourself with me in this way. You see, you are a set of vocal chords, which you have long sought. Your vocal chords are fine. You find this experience interesting inasmuch as you have observed it for many years and yet, like many, you looked upon a communication from the channel of living waters to pass you by, feeling somehow unworthy. It is an error all too often entered into.

Van El has been active in fostering this communication, particularly by maintaining the connection between you and Jeremiah and for this we are grateful and we are pleased with the results. Many are observing the channel of Gerdean which is open.

This is but a beginning. This is possible with anyone willing to trust Our Father, Our Father/Brother Michael's plan of ascension. It is your destiny to know us better, for us to work together, for us to be teammates in the progression scheme. You were advised by Ham and so it is true, "seek and you are sought" and behold we have found one another. (Much spiritual energy there) I return you to Jack.

JACK: You recall in your days and years with Alan with the teachers you beheld adjustments in the circuits, the upstepping of the channel and the downstepping of the spirit personality. You now perceive this in actuality. We will grow. We will be more. Have faith. Have patience. There will be those to ask questions. Perhaps, in fact, there will be much learning. You can see the necessity of maintaining the physical system and you can see, too, the spirit prevails in the face of material considerations.

Your teacher Claireesa spoke to you of morning meditation. It is more than a ritual, a reading of a daily reflection. It is more than a cursory pointing in a direction. Morning stillness sets your path of purpose. We have had a period of time of stillness, of practice. This has been met and exceeded. Rest. Pray. Thank Your Father and Our Father for the developments of this day. We will speak again very soon.

February 21, 1993 (following a visit to Pocatello, Idaho)

TOMAS: Gerdean, this is Tomas. We have been aware of your efforts while you were away from your routine. It will bring you a fresh approach. We sense your disgruntlement with your arena and recall to you that you have the option of leaving, but it would help us if you were to stay where you are for now. The continuity and consistency you provide us and your peers, is as an anchor in an otherwise very vacillating state.

Your fellow apostles will bring you much encouragement when they soon visit and you will enjoy the transcript sent to you by your sister Claireesa. You return tomorrow to your working arena and you are to re-enter as a human being, not as an apostle, but your reason for being absent is not to be overlooked, particularly since it was unusual for you to do such a "selfish" thing. Be certain that people understand your "needs" that were met were physical, emotional, social and spiritual. It is not to say they cannot provide you with these feelings, but to let them know they are crucial to a person's sense of well being. Many people are fearful of emotional needs and yet you provide them every day to the Judge, your bailiff, your neighbors and visitors. It is well they understand that you had to go away from your natural habitat to have your needs met. Assuredly, it will remind them that your emotional needs are being depleted in your environment and that is to be corrected.

February 23, 1993, from the Stillness

TOMAS: Good evening, Gerdean. This is Tomas. You know me as your teacher. It is gracious to be in your presence and in your system. This is not quite the same as with paper. Different energies are involved. It isn't necessary to hold the paper and pencil and therefore there are new areas of energy to be utilized and you are unaccustomed to this new format.

Some time will evolve before you are familiar and comfortable and confident of the processes we are undertaking. You need not feel pressure to suddenly be propounding truths and revelations. It is not expected that you be unaware of what is transpiring. It is only expected, since you have given your permission, that we may utilize you to further teach and espouse the messages and the words and the love of Christ Michael, our Father/Brother Creator who is also here this evening, as you know.

There will be times when you feel you will need to interject or superimpose your thoughts as you are accustomed to your thoughts emanating from your own mouth. However, the thoughts that will issue forth, although not yours originally, will become yours as you too will learn, as you trust, as you listen, as you follow instructions and practice this process. There will be a time when Jeremiah and Nolus will be here that you three will be able to review with each other, rehearse with each other, the growth you have experienced as well as an opportunity to practice among yourselves. This will expand your abilities and stimulate your interest, as you will find yourselves connecting in an avenue eagerly awaited and prized to each of you.

There will be many hours available for you to talk with us alone prior to their arrival. It would be to our advantage if you were to prepare some questions to ask in a session such as this and we would be happy to attempt a response to your inquiry. It is the more challenging when questions are received from outside sources; however, a method of responding to peoples’ questions about their spiritual needs is a practice we will use throughout eternity, and particularly in these times of newly spiritually awakened and awakening souls on Urantia as Correcting Time proceeds and develops, hopefully to flourish. The process is as important as anything in your spiritual life, as it provides an orientation for you to teach in your daily lives.

It is advisable when possible to prepare an environment suitable ~ gracious, and contained ~ thus fostering higher thought processes, less physical emotional stimuli. When it is not possible, when the energy is unavailable to create such an environment, be assured that Our Creator, Christ Michael stands ready to assist, notwithstanding free will choice. It is therefore incumbent upon you to stay close to the Master, to begin your day with morning meditations, to take your new energy into your arena, and firmly implant Our Father's presence in the environment. The Upholder of All desires this.

Yes, it requires energy, stamina, discipline, faith, trust, and action. It is however a necessary aspect of the process of uplifting mankind from spiritual darkness into the era of light and life.

It has been a pleasure to converse with you this evening. It is with joy that we perceive your willingness to proceed with us in the task. It is, in closing, an effort made wondrous and joyous and carefree by and through the love of Our Father and Christ Michael and of your neighbors, the Supernals, the Midwayers, and the celestial personalities throughout the universe, who anxiously await the outcome of the plan of Christ Michael for his children on Urantia. Rest well, Gerdean. Good night.

February 28, 1993

TOMAS: Good evening, Gerdean. This is Tomas. I am your Teacher. You misconstrue when I come into you, I am not invading you nor am I your lover. The intimacy of this process precludes your true lover, your Thought Adjuster, the God-fragment that dwells within you. I am your Teacher.

These are understandable feelings and concerns, and it is well that you share your concerns with me or Jack or any one entity that enters you thus. You may trust that we will not betray you and that our love for you is perfect, inasmuch as it is of The Father. Therefore to some extent you should be familiar with this intimacy. The Teachers, however, reserve their energies to focus on your spiritual nature exclusively. Of course we are concerned with the body, with your health ~ physically and emotionally ~ for it is in a body housed with clear and clean thinking and good health that provides the clearest channel for these communications.

Yes, we have heard of your desire to stop smoking, to cleanse your body of the toxins of nicotine and even caffeine since it is your will that you be used in this way and you are correct. Our communications are improved, are easier for you when your physical condition is pure. We understand "pure" is relative in this case, however we will do everything that you will allow us to do to assist in your endeavor. Remember, however, that your desire to smoke is your free will choice and only when you maintain a free will choice to not smoke can we assist you.

Also, it is to be remembered that there is a responsibility in this process that you have allowed to occur, and that is we hope to convey through you to many the love of Our Father, and of Christ Michael, and of His plans for the many, many human beings who suffer emotional ills and spiritual darkness inherent on this planet at this time. It is not for you to become well, and feel good, and become complacent or smug in your spiritual attainment. It is required that you give what you have received. This is a law in the universe. It is a law which is easy to abide by, since the natural outpouring of knowing Our Father and experiencing His love, yes, His miracles in your life, are something you will want to share. With you we praise Our Father and honor Our Father/Brother Christ Michael, who would speak a word with you, if you are willing to have faith.

MICHAEL: Yes, daughter. It is I. It is permissible. It is hoped that all my children will come to Me without fear. You have known Me for many years. You have seen Me in the morontia form, and you know that you are loved by Me and by Our Father and by the Supernals who watch you with interest as you evolve on the path I have chosen for you. Your light, the light of Our Father, is living reality that we find refreshing, and we anticipate much good work will transpire in our future projects together.

I truly am your lover in truth for I love you with a love that will not fail. I will provide all your needs, all your hopes, and all your ambitions. I will give you security and emotional warmth and satisfaction and all that and more, as you are my daughter and that is all.

TOMAS: Yes, it is I again, Tomas. It is a simple matter is it not, Gerdean, to allow the love of Our Father to open you, to flow through you, and in the flowing encounters with teachers, companions, and even our Creator? You may be astounded, however, you are not imagining. You are not consorting to absurdity. You are rather unemotionally accepting the gift of your sonship. In time you will sit with us face to face and know who we are as a result of feeling our presence with you, by you, and in you, in processes like this.

We will not permit you to lose your footing nor to become beside yourself as it is important for you, for us and for Christ Michael, even to Our Father, that you maintain emotional stability and mental poise on a regular basis. You are calm and growing naturally as a T/R and you might say things are on schedule.

Consider these words tomorrow. Remain calm. Remain poised. Do not become overly excited in the face of the events and emotions of the arena where you find yourself. Our Father is with you, Christ Michael is ever with you and we are watching. We will give you occasions to glimpse as well as opportunities to use your benefits for the edification and comfort of those who come into contact with you on a regular basis.

Yes, the process does take stamina and you are correct to salvage your system for there are exciting times ahead and we need you to help bring them about. Also you deserve to see the fruits of your labors. You must become willing to accept the fruits of your labors and not strive incessantly. And so I say be calm, have poise, accompany Christ Michael through His day with you for He will lead you when in areas that you feel are your domain.

It has been a pleasure being with you this evening. We appreciate the eagerness with which you attend these sessions on Sundays and Tuesdays. It is of course possible on other evenings as well. You might consider a session with us unscheduled so to speak. We love you. Rest. That is all.

March 5, 1993

TOMAS: Yes, this is Tomas and yes, you are correct. I want to talk to you. Gerdean, when someone has been gifted with this ability, it is incumbent upon that individual to give back what they have received. We are gathered together with gratitude that you are accounted to hear what we wish/ask to say/tell you.

Given the nature of our Mission we propose holding to a formal program of teaching which will benefit all encounters with celestial seekers. This ability is not to be cast before swine, although it would be in error for you to make such a determination without consultation. You ask will this not inhibit your spontaneity, intuitiveness. We will guard your tongue with those who obey not our teachings or Our Father's desires.

Catch the drift of the attitude and sense/feel Our Father assuredly. It is the key to your teaching. We would gather believers together. Those who see what you have will seek you also. Those who are jealous, jealously adhere to systems abandoned and passe, are not given access to you. Observe. Refrain from seeking out, but make yourself available.

March 9, 1993

TOMAS: Our days together are going to change soon when others will be brought into the teaching session. Up until now our conversations have been directed toward your growth and your place in Correcting Time. Effective soon there will be others and again you grow as you learn how this experience is not yours. You will meet with myriad responses; however, you will find that most who come to you to hear me are receptive, responsive and enthusiastic listeners.

It will make you feel closer to those present and you must be careful not to become impatient with their questions. This will enable you to grow in patience and loving-kindness. You are entrusted, Gerdean, with a gift, a gift of sonship and you well know the dangers of self-aggrandizement. We do not fear that you will utilize this gift for selfish purposes, but be assured if it were to become part of your consciousness, our communications would abruptly cease.

I know you are aware of occasional conversations where I am speaking and you begin thinking and the flow is cut off because your mind, your brain, has interjected and shut off the channel. If your brain and your mind begin to control or want to control the channel, it will be shut off. This is not to alarm you, this is only informational and if your mind should wander into a presentation by a teacher, with your permission we will proceed and deal with you at a more appropriate time.

These dealings are always done with love, compassion, concern for you as an evolving soul who is anxious to grow in the spirit and in morontia wisdom and is not intended as a reprimand of any sort; however, if you feel you need reprimanding, a mere chastisement to your selfishness will suffice, and we will allow that opportunity if necessary. The point is that we are making great strides and are looking forward to expanding our community.

There are, as well, other teachers who will use this channel for various purposes in this teaching ministry. I have established myself with you so that you may feel comfortable with my presence and when I intend to introduce another speaker, I will advise you and all the coming and going of spirit personalities to proceed so as not to disturb your circuitry or your equilibrium or your peace of mind. You would like an example. There are in attendance multiples of angels and I could call upon another teacher or a higher personality. I will allow Trieste to speak with you for a moment so that you can sense the shift. This is experimental and Trieste awaits the opportunity to speak briefly with you. I will then return for closing, final remarks and salutations.

TRIESTE: Greetings, Gerdean. You recognize me? Yes, I am Trieste and I do feel different, do I not, than Tomas, your Teacher? Tomas is of a different order. I am perhaps, as your personal teacher, more comfortable to you. I perceive you regard me as feminine and Tomas as masculine. This is correct. I am not necessarily gentler than Tomas, for Tomas has a gentle spirit. You feel me more in your gut. Perhaps that's because we have addressed some gut-level personal issues together. I look forward to our interaction and I am pleased to have the opportunity to speak with you now; however, I will remove myself and give you back to Teacher Tomas.

TOMAS: I have returned and it is noted that between each visitation your Thought Adjuster is acknowledged and you are grounded in our Father's love and we will never, ever usurp your relationship with Our Father, so you may rest assured that you are acting in accordance with His will for you.

We have many, many, many things we could discuss and that we will discuss; however, it would be well to conclude this evening's session and I would conclude with these words: you are a faith child and by faith you make those decisions which advance you forward into the Father's love, into further paths of service, into further joy and further responsibility. Responsibility to a mortal is fearful, as it takes away recklessness and self-will run riot. The animal mind is reluctant to focus on spiritual realities; however, the faith child is eager and responsive to the Father's presence and His wishes. You may determine for yourself if you are adequate but we have no doubt. That is all.

March 15, 1993 - In session with Jarad from Nashville

TOMAS: Greetings my loyal students. This is Tomas. We are taking a moment with you to appreciate the peace, the sublime tranquillity, hailing from the First Source and Center which radiates throughout His Kingdom. When you doubt your function and distrust your own belief, pause to feel Our Father as he penetrates your consciousness and warms your true reality. This sublime peace is our goal for all His children. Were all His children to know His love and appreciate the value you are to one another, we will not merely have accomplished a purpose, but will have set in motion another arena for perfection to be experienced and realized. We know of the distress of your brothers and sisters in the flesh and sorrow that they feel the pain of isolation when His love is as near to them as you are.

This is one of our initial goals, to assure our brethren in the flesh of the nearness and comfort and undying love of Our Father. It is anticipated this will not take as long as you might fear, since an acceleration occurs when so many earnest believers apply themselves through effective prayer and unswerving loyalty and devotion to the task at hand. It is understood that this desire to bring God-consciousness to others is for selfish reasons, since the Father Himself, the original I AM craves acknowledgement and craves companionship. It is to His glory that we need other religionists in our lives and we are grateful for the liaison opportunities of our communication as it is a bridge and a beginning.

We look upon earthen vessels with feel of clay and revel in the light that holds you in the palm of His hand. We marvel at the doings of the Mystery Monitor and praise His works. You, have you not noted, when and as you rely more and more upon the unseen realities of spiritual life, the harmony with which your life unfolds? Even those matters which induce deep feelings of emotion are observed with awe and amazement as you are further assured in your understanding of your place in the Father's universe. That you are securely loved is not that our relationship is solely for your pleasure, and your comfort, for there are inherent responsibilities you will be requested to perform, and in these, you will feel invigorated by the opportunity to serve the Master and Our Father in the evolutionary plan of advancement, and ascension for animal-origin creatures. You may well revel, however, in one another as we do also, since we are His loving creations and it is love which connects us, inspires us, upholds us, delights us, and endures us. Have you questions?

GERDEAN: Tomas, yesterday Jarad and I practiced some healing processes and both of us felt improved as a result of the energies that were generated and he suggests, Jarad suggests, that perhaps I might be utilized in a healing role and that Life Carriers might be willing to work with me and perhaps I could work with Jarad's parents and others. I wanted to ask you if you feel that this would be of benefit or not.

TOMAS: Have you not heard that any and all occasions for service are welcome? You are largely willing and largely capable. I qualify that because, as you know, you still have an area or two that require your focused attentions. This is not to say that your efforts are ineffectual, no, you are effectual since your motives and your desires are honorable. It is available to you to undertake any and all avenues of service, which you feel you want to undertake. You are a viable vehicle for spiritual energies and healing powers and it is of course your privilege to open yourself to His grace and His touch. You would do well to seek His careful guidance; as we discussed earlier, it is not incumbent upon you to attempt to practice your gifts to seekers of signs. This will exhaust you and temporarily defeat you and we need your energies in our association such as this. If you are assured by the Father that the needs of the seeker are sincere, then you may consider the privilege to serve.

JARAD: It seems like the most power I've felt come though, has been the healing from Gerdean yesterday. In fact she liked to've blown up my eye. This... it seemed like a tremendous energy coming through, and it was thrilling. It is thrilling for me to think about. I don't know — her compassion or something — and I don't know enough about it but I just want to say it's beautiful to me.

TOMAS: It is beautiful to us as well and it is more than curious that Gerdean, herself, has no faith in herself. This on one hand is advantageous since it allows her to function in a fairly guileless manner; however, she tends to belittle herself when we have told her time and time again this is not necessary. She has no comprehension of what she provides and it is not necessarily humility that she experiences in unappreciating her value, but it is close.

JARAD: Maybe I could bequeath her some of my arrogance.

TOMAS: You say that not flippantly, but she would not suffer were she to assume some strength of character.

JARAD: You know I see so many people that don't realize all they are. I'm in awe of it. They don't catch all that they are and can be and I see it in her, she's so valuable.

TOMAS: This is one of the reasons we have her working with the Program of AA. She touches many peoples lives by sharing her experience, strength and hope, and although many regard her as too intellectual and sometimes beside herself, she plants many seeds and gives much of substance. I am also quick to add that they provide her with much encouragement, as her own spiritual ego is often in danger and the simple faith of these people who are often uneducated and without benefit of the Fifth Epochal Revelation such as she has, is a humbling and real part of her total essence. It is literally true, religionists need each other, wherever they are to be found.

Perhaps we would do well to recess, providing we have another occasion this day to share the life the Father has given us.

MICHAEL: Yes, again, this is Michael, your brother, your father, and your companion. The way has been paved and the time has come to walk the path I have selected for you. You are witness today to the paradise of life as it is lived on Urantia. On one hand there is a cool breeze and the song of birds and the peaceful harmony of a peaceful kingdom. On the other hand there is instinct and survival and life and death and the throes thereof transpiring alongside the harmony. It is as it is and as it should be.

It is not wise to be impatient with life as it presents itself. More effective is it for you to accept your origin and your destiny and be at peace right where you find yourself now. For what good is it to exalt on one hand and decry on the other, for all matters are under authority of My Father, and your Father, and you have only to be aware of Our presence and be aware and follow the promptings given to you at that moment We would ask you to act on our behalf. Those moments are sometimes infrequent and sometimes a deluge of activity is made available, however, Our overcontrol assures you, you will have time to wait and rest and reflect and in turn time and energy and power to act and respond to situations presented for your gift to My children. These are human kindnesses and are grounded in love, for love is all. Often love would require you to deny your own involvement in a mortal's active design, and this requires courage, yet it may reflect the greater love, as Our Father is not always mindful to grant your every wish and whim, so you are also called upon to direct your purpose, such that you are not carried away or swept into the tumult of another. It is only that you, yes, you, depend on Our guidance and power and grace and as you see this week and experience these offerings of affection and filial joy, you know where the First Source and Center resides, you will feel the energy of this day far into the next season.

As I was wont to do when I tread the path of mortal existence, I sought companionship and solitude with spirit as you have done today. In this world which is undergoing tumultuous change and death and rebirth, guard yourselves against its floodtides of anxiety and fear and instinct to run. Anchor yourself in my bosom and we will approach tomorrow together. You might begin to utilize your gifts and your energies to specifically set out prayers for Our heavenly helpers to act upon, as we all await the opportunity to serve and build and grow in The Father's Kingdom.

March 16, 1993

TOMAS: Good afternoon. This is Tomas your Teacher. You are prompt with your appointment to meet with the spirit realm who watches over you as you go about your daily affairs.

Christ Michael is here as well and asks me to point out that as your circle of spiritual influence widens and allows the spirit to direct your lives and the lives of others, things fall into place in ways you cannot imagine. The distractions, glitches, and interferences which occur as a result of not being in harmony with spiritual circuitry, are irksome and inconvenient. Imagine life without these minor yet consistent setbacks, how free we shall feel, how much more we will appreciate the beauty, truth and goodness of Our Father and of Michael and His plan for His children.

He, Christ Michael, also asks that I remind you that when you set aside time to talk with Him and be with Him, He is there and is fully aware of what is transpiring and is patient when life interferes with your immediate and consummate communication with Him. He provides you the energy and grace to deal lovingly with any situation which may encounter you in your doings.

The time Jarad has set aside with Michael from three until four in the afternoon is tremendous practice, and all mortals would do well to feel His presence for a specific time daily, as this provides willingness and cooperation with spirit energies, and does generate much toward bringing about our ultimate goal. It is also to be noted that I, as your Teacher, am pleased to remind you, that one of the things that we intend to bring about on your world is an appreciation for the sonship status of every individual you encounter. This is why we urge you to regard each person you meet as a reflection of Christ Michael, as a son of God. We ask that you identify His spirit fragment and relate and identify and address that element in each barbarian you encounter and they will dissolve in your face.

The truth is that each individual who is not in conscious contact with Our Father hungers to be there and do so. It is a courageous step to invite God to be part of one's life. God is all-powerful and any power impacting as greatly as people fear God will impact on them is often terrifying, unfortunately, for if they only knew Our Father's tenderhearted loving-kindness and mercy and beneficence, they would scramble to Him as birds to seed.

It is asked of you who know the Master, who have followed Him and who have sat at His feet and washed His feet and worshiped and adored His perfection, that you carry Christ Michael with you in the flesh, alive and well and loving and happy into the world and greet your brothers and sisters in the spirit. They are waiting for you. They are hungry for the light that emanates from you and through you as it hails from Our Father. It is recognized by those who do not fear you, so we encourage you to be light-hearted and gentle with these timid souls and fear-ridden children. Truly they hunger for what you have and it is your privilege to edify them in that they are also sons and daughters of the living truth, that the way is easy, that the burden is light, and that the joy is untold.

We are preparing, as we speak, for, shall we say, a corp. of heavenly helpers, as your fellow apostles are en route and they anticipate such sharing as they have not before experienced here and with you. I hasten to bring to your attention that the energies, the powerful energies which have been implanted in this area, are having already an impact on personalities and situations over which you have no control and are not even aware.

It is true that these new surges of spiritual power sometimes, often, have upsetting ramifications for some of the more belligerent and fearful creatures of the realm. This is to be expected and is not to cause you alarm and it is most important that you not stop your teaching mission because of negative upheavals. These are natural occurrences, as in planting seeds for the Kingdom, certain worms are severed in plowing the field, yet the fruit of the labor of the planting is vital to your sustenance and to our sustenance also.

Gerdean, I want to make reference to your acceptance of this process. It has been a test of your fidelity to the Father and you, as usual, have come through. Your faith, as we have advised you before, is beautiful and you are aware that it comes from Our Father, although you make the decisions necessary to climb the ladder of spiritual accomplishment and insight. It is ultimately your own faith that allows these processes to occur in your life and we have come a long way fairly quickly.

MICHAEL: My beloved children, I am your Father/Brother Michael. I offer my grace to you in this experience. It pleases me that you have come together to honor those truths for which I lived and died on your world and you see I live again and still and now in my realm and yours as it is ever so, I am the living way.

You are among my beloved active agents in bringing about My Kingdom which is spiritual in origin and when it is grasped by faith sons and daughters such as yourselves it will also radiate down through and to and in your material world and peace will reign and love will prevail and this, My children, is more wondrous than you can perceive. Trust, my children, that this is so and work with Me as fishers of men.

I will not fail you. I will not let you down. I will not let you be afraid. I am pleased to greet you and bestow my loving spirit on you this perfect afternoon, and look forward to the joining of Apostle Jeremiah and Apostle Nolus, and we in the spirit realms are celebrating the life and the faith and the trust, in our saving message which prevails and comes soon in your brethren. I am with you always. Tomas will conclude.

TOMAS: Reinforcements are en route, Gerdean, and remember two things: religionists need each other and also this experience is not yours alone. We are still growing and learning. Have faith. Trust. Go forward in peace.

March 18, 1993

TOMAS: Albuquerque will never be the same. This is Tomas. Welcome Nolus and Jeremiah. We have awaited your addition of power these many days when Jarad and Gerdean have communed and visited and learned from others and myself. We are pleased at the progress and the fellowship of these past days and want to express our appreciation for your timely arrival as now we have created yet another link in the gridlock of the living organism of the Kingdom of Christ Michael.

Yes, Gerdean, Ham has set his suitcase inside the front door and is eagerly adjusting his Self to the vibration levels of your arena and I perceive he is smiling. He and I have spent many enjoyable times concerning ourselves about the Mission and how to begin our program of Correcting Time and we offer you our congratulations that you have, through teacher Jack, been made ready to serve in this capacity for Albuquerque and environs. We knew you could do it.

While we accustom ourselves to this vibrational plateau, have you any questions?

GERDEAN: I know I am based here and I accept my assignment in Albuquerque and I guess out of curiosity I wonder if this is my base as long as I'm on the planet or am I just not supposed to worry about that? I accept being here, I just wonder if I have to stay here?

HAM: Gerdean, the Mission spreads throughout the world. No one must stay anywhere. There is humanity everywhere. You will be prompted and you will be led as to where you should be. Always be open to the prompts and the directions and you will know. It is not for me to say this is where you will be forever, for that is not necessarily so, but this is where you are for now and you are a forerunner to the establishment of the Mission here. However, because you are the forerunner, do not feel that you will be here forever.

Rest assured that throughout eternity, as needs are demanded, that you will be placed wherever you will be most efficient. Many of your desires of your heart will be considered as well as the desires of the Mission; therefore, live each day as you must, giving the most that you possibly can, living in the moment, giving to humanity the many seeds that are available and allow them to grow, allow yourself to be an apostle of Christ Michael and He will lead to where He would have you be.

March 19, 1993

TOMAS: This is Tomas. Good evening. We are approaching the apex of a momentous week in your growth development, as well as important mechanical work, which will enable this channel to be accessible to many. The mechanical aspects are not important to you right now. You will see the effects of this circuitry in a matter of days or sooner. Wait upon His will in all things.

We are of particular concern, and note your personal growth experiences this week in the social realm, but more importantly, in your individual soul growth. The affirming aspects of your fellowship and the fellowship of Jeremiah and Nolus have added greatly to your comprehension of the phenomenon of your position and role in Correcting Time. You see, this is not a mere exercise, and although we ask that you continue to practice this process, practice is not necessarily a road to perfection but an actuating process.

There are still many personalities in and focused on your immediate area and many will remain until called to further duty tomorrow. Many will remain stationed here and, of course, many will return to Tennessee with Jarad. It is important that you realize that in our state of transcendence over time and space, it is possible for us to contact you fairly quickly as we all have our focus, yet we are alert to any needs or requests and able to act upon those under most circumstances.

We have no anxiety, of course, regarding the viability of this platform of communication. I am, therefore, free to accompany you, Gerdean, to the Orient. I perceive and Machiventa agrees that your security as a transmitter/receiver will be better grounded if we maintain our program of communication process as outlined and fairly well abided by.

It will be a tremendous healing time for the two of you (former spouses, Gerdean and Alan) and you will both feel much relief and subsequent effects of mutual forgiveness. As he has indicated, he has found his heart, and this is the key with which we will open the channel in Thailand. He has been a true forerunner and we are grateful to him for his perseverance.

You, Gerdean, will endear yourself to Thai children by accessing your own frame of reference for Buddha and for the classic meditation techniques and philosophies of their culture. You will comport yourself as a Brahman, as you are not culturally acceptable as a monk. Lest we overmuch focus on that upcoming epoch, I will return my interest to the here and now and yours and Jarad's patient awaiting of what guidance and direction you may anticipate in other more immediate realms.

I am not authorized, as you know, to read into the future, as all free will has bearing on what the future holds. However, we hope to instill in Jarad's group the same stimuli and attention as has been manifest here. His return to his arena and his home group of students will benefit immeasurably by his glad tidings and tales of his adventures in the desert and with his families, both earthly and heavenly.

We have accomplished the discipline of tape recording our conversations for posterity. It is not every tape that must be kept nor every conversation that must be recorded, however, these early conversations are guidelines to your progress and serve as well to uphold your faith, and when things start moving too fast or refuse to move at all, these transcripts are refresher courses in what we are attempting. They are a lifeline to your own spiritual connection with your fellow apostles and active disciples in this movement and it is a memorabilia of time well spent with loving friends.

I was pleased, Gerdean, that you tuned in to us this morning. That decision was a growth experience for you, as it was very evident how the association and conviction of your standing in our process is “God doing for you what you cannot do for yourself.” Your role is to grow in grace and do not fear the levels of functioning you are coming to be comfortable with. Do not allow negative energy and chaotic situations or derision to remove you from your state of grace. As it is pointed out in morontia mota, the combined natures of divinity and humanity provide a life of wealth untold, and you are permitted and encouraged to stand erect and serve.

Jarad, you have been of much benefit this week and you must have no doubt as to your worth in this Mission, as your noble spirit has been a sound inspiration for all of us and your mortal associates. You have indeed grown tremendously and your humble personality is an encouraging example to others. Your growth in your relationship with the Master and your time spent with Him has blossomed you into a refreshing and compassionate soul. Yes, I perceive there is always more work to be done; however, you may feel esteemed and beloved as we have observed how you have bestowed your truths and your personal reality on your environment and you have performed nobly. We are going forward. Having experienced so much, and having absorbed and shared so much, we are not of a mind to turn back.

I have appreciated this quality time with you both this afternoon, as I have taken a back seat to many activities these past few days. I have been enthralled and not impatient; however, I have enjoyed this opportunity to express myself. I am going to once again retire to a comfortable corner of your arena and observe as other entities have desire to speak with both of you and this is the ideal opportunity. We will recess briefly.

JARAD: Tomas, thank you for your kindness.

TOMAS: You know, Jarad, it is sometimes difficult for us as teachers to disallow a response. We, like you, have hungered for this satisfying kind of rapport and interaction. We have long waited for flickers and when we hear your voice speak directly to us by name and address our personality, we find it difficult to just not respond. Therefore, yes, my son, you are welcome.

March 21, 1993

TOMAS: Glad tidings, my children. I am Tomas and it is ever so that as you reach for us, we in turn reach for you. We are commissioned and privileged to serve as your teachers and supernal guides. Our Teacher Corp has had a joyous time in establishing this teacher base in Albuquerque and, again, we are grateful to you both for your contribution to this established mode of spiritual dispersion.

Yes, as I mentioned earlier, you will be feeling the effects of this week for some time to come and your immediate growth, although unconscious, will amaze even yourselves when you ponder the events of this week and this event of celebration and praise.

As you return from this sheltered oasis of spiritual reality, you are urged to reflect on all that you can perceive of the so-called miracles which have transpired and will continue to take root and grow. As you prepare to re-enter the work of your individual realms, we are on the forefront with you and are only as far away as your faith. We urge you to take unto yourselves the true meaning of your friendship with one another and with the supernals and grow fattened on the fruits of this harvest. When you enter your arena, remind yourselves how flooded with the love and tranquillity you have been these many days and ponder that His will is being done in your life and through your direct efforts toward making further inroads into the density of your animal-origin realm.

We realize not all will respond to your pervasive good humor and we would advise you to not get caught up on those personalities, which would sour your sunny dispositions, but to pass by and greet the next human being as your spiritual counterpart. It is also requested that as you meander into the maze of human experience, you stop to reflect on the grace of the Master and the truth of His never being in a hurry. This we realize is difficult as your arenas are often caught up in energy systems beyond your control. We would ask that you observe the confusion and supposed accomplishment as a passing cinema and not as your ultimate reality. It enhances greatly our ability to remain in contact with you if you remain as disconnected from those illusions of power as possible.

When you thus stand removed, yet in service, you will clearly see your brethren acting upon their fears and insecurities and we would admonish you to, even in the face of appearing foolish or beside yourself, make some acknowledgement to that individual of his ultimate destiny and his position as a child of God who is as beloved as any higher being.

These children of Urantia are indeed starving for the truth, the beauty and the goodness, which you know and have lived and espouse as values upheld by the Master. These are simple undertakings and quietly and slowly and consistently bring light of truth. We anticipate a tremendous upstepping of response to spirit guidance. It is incumbent upon you to be ready at all times to perceive a soul reaching out for acceptance and assurance of his reality and value. This is different than what the individual does for a living or from what connections he may have or any of those fleeting realities. We are concerned only with the recognition of Our Father in our Brother, for this is the realization of the brotherhood of man and the gospel of the Kingdom as Christ Michael has authorized we live and foster.

You are privileged children to have such reserves of spiritual guidance and affection as is provided by the Teachers and other heavenly helpers, and you must not hold it unto yourselves but spew forth your seeds, and return constantly to your Father who abides within you and will direct your steps in all you do.

When you stumble, my children, when you fall prey to your own ego or your own naiveté, do not berate your abilities and your standing in our service or in your own soul. You cannot be belittled as you are of the Father and you can only be made stronger and wiser as you follow the path of his endeavor.

We will not rest. We are ever vigilant. We have attended you in great numbers. Yes, legions have been present coming and going this week in appreciation of this momentous yet humble beginning. No event in the unfolding of Our Father's affairs is small. We celebrate your efforts as keenly and fully as we would celebrate a major dispensation.

Although you are coming to a closure in this momentous passage, you are not to feel as though you are off alone in your arena and we have gone on to our office in the sky. We are working with you on a Mission of such grave concern that we are untiring and always on alert to your need for us and we will make whatever contact with you that you will allow. These things all take time, my son, my daughter, and we are not impatient and yet as you were told by our Planetary Prince, Machiventa Melchizedek, this is an emergency. This is extremely dire and the need is truly great.

You are reminded that while the forward moving spectacle of evolution on your world is ever accelerating and advancing, you are always precious children and you may come to us for succor and comfort as we know that the work is difficult. We are not unmindful of your human limitations and finite failings; however, we are always there for you to grasp onto as, providing your physical health is adequate, we will use you to your maximum capacity and willingness.

You may dally on the path, my playful little ones, however you will, when you have rested, be eager to resume the march of ages. We love you more than you can know and always are encouraging you and supporting you. We are in this together and we welcome you to this supernal adventure of opening this isolated sphere to the light and love of Our Father at long last.

MICHAEL: I am Michael, your Lord. I wanted to have a little chat with you to conclude our momentous events of late and to see you into the next leg of our sojourn on Urantia.

I have felt your loving kindness permeate throughout the realm and have basked in your honor of My assignment for you. You are today as fat puppies who have drunk deep and find comfort and peace in the sun. This is grievous to those who covet your relationship with Me and I will walk with you when you seek to guide these misdirected and bashful children to My abiding love. Today, however, My son, My daughter, I am reminded of the truth that upon each accomplishment there is a period of holiday from effort and you have drunk deep of the celebration of life in Me these many hours.

I know you well and know that soon you will grow hungry again for supernal harmony and truth and you will be given opportunity to work in My fields and fish in My rivers for those who would follow after Me, for I am your Father/Brother. I am Love, and I have only love for you. You may seek for Me and find Me not, but in stillness and in faith of My love for you and My peace prevalent in your world, you will have momentary glimpses of My presence and My divine compassion for you and your fellows. You may also look for other spirit entities who accompany you on your daily walk home to Me and as you traverse the path of My choosing, for you are My children. I am providing for you such love and companionship and protection as you need never fear. I cannot convey to your minds the greatness and depth of My love for you and you ask, "Why me?" and I say to you, "Because you are My children" and that is all that is required.

My peace I leave with you as we go about our daily affairs.

March 22, 1993

TOMAS: This is Tomas. Thank you, my daughter, for coming to me with your problems and your concerns. As you encounter your world, particularly in the face of the experiences of this past week and the changes that have been wrought, as you know, there is a new circuitry in effect and today you had occasion to realize you are reacting to the natural outworking of what we have been doing these past many days.

Yes, you did speak with conviction and reality. It was your reality. It frightened these women who indeed did ask you to comfort them and encourage them. You did what any normal apostle would do, you reminded them of the God that lives within them, that they are beloved and that He is the source of all strength and comfort. That you evidenced such deep, abiding love for these women is something they are not familiar with and, as you say, were frightened of, and this precisely, my daughter, is why Correcting Time is so crucial. There is no need for Our Father's children to fear Him or to fear love, for, as we know, love is the answer.

Also we have observed in your retyping the tapes your impressions as an "observer" and clearly see that that is not your style of writing. That in fact you are not quite that gifted. You are a good pupil and a responsive T/R but we reiterate if you were to quit smoking, your channel would be able to pick up much more refined messages. I understand you too have fear, for you already feel quite smitten with the spirit and have concern that were you to be even clearer, you might be quickly crucified or worse. Your fears are unfounded, as all fears are unfounded, for Our Father's love is the answer. You need to come to terms with your habit and even more importantly you must come to terms with your reluctance and fears about being all that you can be. You have worked with Trieste up to a point and she stands ready to work with you again and more. It is for the eternal good that we remind you again.

Yes, you really must learn to take care of yourself, which is to say, you must learn to love yourself. You must learn what your needs are, your personal needs, in terms of physical maintenance. Not of your home, not of your yard, not of your car, but of your being, your tranquillity, your nourishment, your recreation, your creativity, your wardrobe, you, the person. I believe Trieste might be in a better position to help you with that, however you are resisting Trieste since you know she will try to help you with smoking and you are torn about that. Yes, Gerdean, you are tired and not well and so rather than sap you further, please sit here in the stillness for a few more minutes and see if you improve.

You begin to see glimpses of, while the work is important, you are important in a human way and you are a child. You are a little one needing tender loving care and nurturing and you must not give so freely of yourself that you overlook your needs and your limitations. I've have talked to you about this before and will again until it is an integral part of your being that you take care of your self and then we can serve others. Go to bed.

March 26, 1993

TOMAS: You find yourself now, since all the excitement of last week has subsided, and you resume with life on life's terms; had a chance to get your own footing, you find not being isolated perhaps, but not being surrounded with such powerful and loving energies, that you are now back to dullsville and tedious lack of stimuli, etc, and this is not so. We are here for you. There are new exercises, also, instituting to keep your mind occupied, positively engaged.

But yes, now is the time for you to focus on yourself in terms of getting well and in continuing to be aware of the promptings. Stay clear, stay clean, stay reasonably unfettered, stay healthy. And we will persist and pursue one day at a time. All phases of growth are a gift, not just the reward, holiday. It is challenges and opportunities presented are growth experiences for you and for those who encounter and you have many wonderful people on your path. You have much in store for you Gerdean. As you reach out, show your Father's love to your brothers and sisters.

March 29, 1993

TOMAS: This is Tomas. I am your teacher. I have witnessed your elation and ecstasy in hearing the tape recording of Welmek's group, of Welmek addressing his group, as well as Machiventa Melchizedek and Gabriel and Michael and I have enjoyed your stupification at the enlargement of your concept of what is in fact transpiring and while I have delighted in your growing awareness, my heart is moved to see a humble creature in the flesh exalting the Creator of a universe and His divine plan for you and for other children much like you.

You perceive rightly. We are in truth the organization established by Michael to usher in the era of light and life. It is in coordination with willing mortals such as yourself that this will come about. You are rightly gratified to know that I am not a figment of your imagination and that I in fact am a member of the Teacher Corp assigned to this area as Welmek is assigned to his area, as Daniel is assigned to Pocatello, as Ham has been assigned to Salt Lake, as Tarkas has been assigned in Ohio and many other Teachers are assigned and awaiting activation in their area.

We anticipate one opening in Thailand very quickly. We appreciate your taking and sharing news of Correcting Time to Thailand and activating it as a reality. This you can do, daughter, and you have willingly made yourself available and it is noted that you obey the promptings impressed upon you. You are loved. You are appreciated and you are not alone in any sense of the word.

We are thrilled that so many are willing to believe and become active participants. It is very helpful and encouraging when you support one another and reinforce in each other the cognizance of this stupendous, momentous and exciting time in the evolution of Urantia.

In the face of these momentous events of cosmic importance, yes, it is understandable that the mundane and routine interests in relative importance of your working 8 to 5 existence in your government lack reality, lack stimuli; however it is important that what your hands find to do, you do with all your might. It is for the Father that you do these things. It is as Christ Michael did when he was here. He worked in the shop. He toiled. He took care of his family. He took care of his material and filial obligations and this he did, as you do when you go in from 8 to 5. He shirked not his duty and he loyally plied himself to his commitment to his earth family until such time as waiting was filled and he was commissioned to go about doing His Father's business.

In like way, Gerdean, you are doing Our Father's will by steadfastly and loyally taking care of the business assigned to you in your temporal arena and we appreciate your efforts while you are there to edify and uplift and bring comfort and reality to those children who toil in that arena with you. It would make your 8 to 5 existence less tedious, less troublesome, if you were to regard it as a job you do for the Master in helping to bring about light and life on his natal planet.

We appreciate the work you do as you go about your daily affairs and we are working with you to bring children to the awareness of your Father in Heaven, your Father/Brother Christ Michael, the love that is in store for them, the divine plan that is outlined for them, the infinite love that belongs to them, is their birthright, if they are but willing to be born of the spirit and take hold of the hand that will lead them on the eternal path.

Radiate your joy, Gerdean, as you walk upon Urantia, Agondonter Gerdean, and let your light so shine that they will know that you have seen with eyes to see and heard with ears to hear the melody, the harmony, the beauty and the light and the truth of sonship and brotherhood.

Do not falter. Do not allow others disbelief and skepticism and cynicism to stand in your way of speaking clearly and calmly and consistently and lovingly of the truths that you know to prevail, and that is we are embarked on uplifting this darkened sphere out of the influence of sin and iniquity, and into the loving light of truth, beauty and goodness as our Father's children in His divine plan.

Yes, Gerdean, it is an exciting time and one which we are pleased to share with you. We will grow, my child, we will expand, we will teach, and we will learn and we will grow and we will become a living organism. We are becoming the Evolving Supreme. Yes.

Yes. It is to give thanks and to savor and accept as your destiny these wondrous days, these incredible acts of faith, these convictions and this supernal array of companionship. It is, yes, to worship and give thanks to the Father, to Our Father, infinite Creator, Upholder, omnipotent and loving beyond comprehension.

Until the morning, Gerdean. Go in peace and rest in Father's care.

March 30, 1993

TOMAS: Good evening, Gerdean. It is Tomas. Yes, our meditation period seems to flow swiftly. It is a comfortable place. It is safe; it is secure. It is in oneness with the Father and His divine energies wherein we convene and commune and console and confab. Yes, it is safe and full and secure and, yes, you are clinging to this reality, as well you might, for you early tomorrow are embarking on a journey to faraway shores to visit with memories and personalities from the past when you were not as strong and as well versed, when you were dependent and weak and willing to allow the strengths of Alan's personality to dominate and, yes, teach and, yes, control your life.

These are new days and you, indeed, have your own life. You have your own firm convictions. You have your own realities with feet on the ground and your ideals are in appropriate spheres of service and you have an understanding of your human strengths and limitations.

Yes, we are accompanying you and you are not going alone. This is our joy as well, as we enjoy these liaisons which, despite your fears, will be indeed a celebration of life and light and you will be gratified by the results. Yes, Alan is an exuberant personality. He has changed considerably and you will not find him overbearing as he once was. Many of his character traits are fragrant these days and although you will find remnants of once-flagrant character defects, he is harmless and peaceful and a true brother in Christ. He is as eager to share Correcting Time with you as you are with him. You need have no fear on that count, for he is hungry for spiritual news and reinforcement and assurance of his earlier striving. You bring good tidings and he wants to award you with a proper tour of his new homeland. You are in store for a true holiday. Yes, you enjoyed a holiday with Jarad, Nolus and Jeremiah recently, but this has the added aspects of new sights, sounds, color and culture. You will enjoy every aspect of this trip, Gerdean. Go in faith.

You still harbor doubts that our communication is valid transmitting/receiving and although you perceive truths in others, you are reluctant to perceive truths in this, your own process. As you behold others teach through transmitting/receiving, consider the coloring of the human instrument and allow that, in spite of those colorings, the essence of the message is the same. It is a celestial reinforcement and reassurance, and this we do willingly, gladly and freely because of the nature of the isolation of your planet and the fact that you are still a long way from being healed and you need and require nurturing such as other children on this planet need nurturing and reassurance.

It is not a failing on your part to (need to) know that you are loved. It is not a weakness to seek our acceptance of you and appreciation of you, for you have worked and lived and toiled and endured an entire lifetime without proper acknowledgement. We are overjoyed to acknowledge that we are a team, we are united in this effort as you know from your text, we work through you and you work with us and we together will make strides toward bringing this planet into new areas of spiritual liberation.

This is your message; this is your purpose. This is the reason for this trip. This is the reason, Gerdean, for all that you do, for you have devoted yourself to doing the will of Our Father and this is His will for you; to love your life and to praise God for giving it to you and to your fellows.

You may find some difficulty on the airplane transmitting/receiving, or even listening to tapes. I would suggest that you take transcripts or reading material to occupy your mind spiritually. I would also suggest that you engage in filial conversations with your fellow travelers and listen for our promptings for we have messages for people you encounter. Focus on us and do not allow (tape turned, some lost) on your journey of life for we would be participants with you as you participate with us. We will help you direct your thoughts and your love energies to your peers and your chance acquaintances. Remember how much the Master contributed as he passed by. You will spend many hours in the air and you might as well become accustomed to those hours as a method of teaching and preaching and healing as you pass by. Remember to drink liquid. Remember to walk around. Remember to take your vitamins, and remember that we are with you every step, every mile of the way.

I relinquish you to your rest and to the administrations of Our Father as he prepares His path through your Thought Adjuster. I will greet you upon your rising.

MICHAEL: I am Christ Michael and I would say a word to you, Gerdean, before you prepare for sleep and parts unknown. Remember, My child, that I am with you. I have walked with you and I have manifested Myself to you. I also am with you when you see Me not. Never fear, my daughter, for I am at your side and I am eager to support you and uphold you as you walk the path of My choosing. I also eagerly await your arrival on foreign shores and your reunion with your brother, my son, Alan, and I will prevail even there. You may feel quite at home for I am your home and I am with you always.

April 5, 1993 Thailand (partial transcript)

UNKNOWN: I AM manifesting to you as a supernal teacher. I chose to reveal myself to you as you have grappled with faith levels and overmuch intellectual conceptualizations. I am here to reveal the love and depth of feeling, which the universe bestows upon its residents. Your depth of feeling is known to us and we are touching you in acknowledgement of the sincere value you have felt. You are not incorrect in your prayers to Christ Michael, they do not fall on deaf ears. Your presence and your prayer will effectuate some growth and this is an aspect of service, which is contributory to the evolution of spiritual effectiveness in your world. It is through these sincere longings and loving hopes for your fellow men and women that move the course of Michael's Mission forward. I encourage you to not falter in these seemingly crushing disappointments for you have not failed. There is no failure here, only growth.

April 10, 1993

TOMAS: Your mind has been busy and I am reminded to tell you that much of your mental activity is resultant from the jet lag phenomenon and all the things that transpire in your mind are not things which need to be accomplished this moment. This moment is sufficient unto itself as we are engaging in our wholesome, steadfast and true means of contact which is comfortable for us and which benefits you and me at this point.

It was, however, pleasant to have the exchanges we had on your venture and as we stated, we're grateful that you took time to contact us regarding your impressions and affairs and disappointments. We are here for that purpose and others and it is well that you take advantage of the asset we are to you.

We are concerned about your daily affairs to a great extent. As we have said, you need to be unfettered and have peace of mind in order to go about doing good and feeling that peace which passes all understanding, that provides the joy in living which is the shining example for people you encounter to recognize that a spirit-led life is not fraught with fear and quilt and remorse, but filled with joy and plenty.

There are aspects of your underlying personality which are obstructive to your own freedoms, and one of those is other people's expectations of you. This is a result of having expectations from other people. If you were to work through that issue, you would provide yourself with considerable personal freedom to establish priorities that are most conducive to your benefit and you are correct that, as you benefit, others benefit; as you are willing to accept the care-taking aspects of Our Father, then you will verbally advertise for God as you go about your daily affairs.

There is particularly no reason for you to become overwhelmed by considering all the matters before you in one fell swoop. These matters will present themselves for completion or fruition one at a time or two at a time but not, certainly, all at once. And this will provide you with plenty of activity. I wish to remind you that another purpose of our communication is for you to be able to center your energies and focus on The Father and on lasting value and your respective place in the cosmic neighborhood so that you remember yourself and quiet time for that Self to reconnect and go forward with new destiny enthusiasm.

As it is recorded in your text, in the Urantia Book, Jesus was never in a hurry. It is a graciousness which we would have, you strive for and we know it is difficult as energy levels around you are often fast and furious. It is incumbent upon you to recognize when you are facing a fast lane situation to withdraw and focus on The Father and on spiritual fellowship so as not to become snowballed into their lesser and unproductive energy pattern level.

The poise and graciousness provided from connecting with entities such as myself and Trieste and others offers opportunity perspective priorities. There is on the higher energy levels, more time for more gracious matters and for handling more matters more graciously.

TRIESTE: It is, as much as possible, incumbent on you to simplify your life, and you may take for example the film you watched which gave you such pleasure, and that simplistic Oriental lifestyle which purported itself as being calm and gracious and dignified and yet reeling with feeling could lend itself well to your developing personality. It is not the same as growing old gracefully, if you think that, for you are not growing older, Gerdean, but younger, as you proceed in your living reality adventure. Your spiritedness is appreciated by supernals and mortals alike. You are making fast friends everywhere you go.

I note with interest you are also meeting personalities who are not becoming fast friends and this is also developmental, as you are still gracious, and yet their opinions are not affecting you as they once might have. You are beginning to appreciate which advisement and inputs from your associates are helpful or interesting or which are harmful or disturbing. Our Father's path is interesting. He has no desire to disturb you.

Growth often involves conflict, however, it is not necessary that conflict halt your progress, as if you follow spiritual guidance, you will be led to solutions without overmuch conflict, as you are living the will of The Father fairly exclusively, and therefore many of your unresolved conflicts of the spirit and the flesh are no longer so time consuming and energy draining. You are becoming a morontia personality and your loyalties are becoming clearer and more defined and we have the opportunity to work in this area with you. I eagerly anticipate our path together.

TOMAS: I am Tomas, your teacher. I am commissioned by Machiventa Melchizedek through Christ Michael to perform these duties of communication and guidance for your planet and I urge your continued support and cooperation in this endeavor, Gerdean. You cannot tell anyone about your own personal spiritual life, which is to say you cannot explain or describe or share your reality except through living love and living faith and living truth. And we would have you be, and become these elemental things, and we are operating in accordance with His wishes. Do not hesitate nor doubt, do not falter. Be, and allow us to help you in your being; in your processes of interrelating with your fellow mortal sojourners. Yes, enough for this evening. You are well. All is well. Rest in peace.

April 16, 1993

TRIESTE: You have asked me to address the subject of fears, and although fears are not my forte, I have witnessed mortal behavior, and actions, and reactions long enough to have some insight into what fears are, and as you know from your text they are mental in origin, and not spiritual. However, since most of your life has been spent in emotional realms and mental realms, it is not surprising that fears are an influential part of your total makeup, and it is innate in the human animal and has brought much distress to all mortals of ascension.

It is, of course, far, far worse for those who are not aware of a living, loving Father, and a path designed specifically for you and each individual. It is, I have perceived, terrifying to some to not have a god or a concept of supernal power, and cosmic energy on which to depend, and you are fortunate in that you have always had a thread of Our Father's reality, and have been often aware of that influence, so your fears have not overtaken you as often as some, as often as it might have.

Your fears are of isolation and not feeling a part of your cosmic family. Most of your fears have to do with your own lack of faith in your Father's plan for you and your own strengths. You have foregone many challenges, which have been presented to you, because you feared according to your higher motives, inasmuch as if you were to have acted on your higher motives, and insights, you would perforce stand alone, and this has been your primary fear throughout your life.

Your fear of being isolated and cut off from support, either emotional or financial or social, have all stemmed from your fear of being isolated from fundamental reality. There is as you know, few individuals purporting and following through with their belief, and faith, in Higher Power and supernal reality. And in your attempts to stagger through your experiences, you have lamented the lack of spiritual consciousness, and loving kindness in your fellows, and in this we share your concern, however, we are not debilitated by fear, as you have known fear, since we are assured that Our Father will not cease endeavors to uplift his children, who sit in darkness and in fear, and we are grateful to you for your willingness in allowing our words, and our essence, and personality to enter into your sphere of consciousness, so that we can enable you to stand firm and help your fellows to accept spiritual realities, by your affirmations and your recognition of their lasting value.

The more individuals who subscribe to assurance of spiritual living reality, the less you and others will feel this sense of fearsome isolation, and feelings of abandonment and inadequacy, and expectation will subside, and your fears will become totally manageable and indeed negligible.

It is however an aspect of creatures of animal origin to fear, and it is largely due to initial instinct to live, and complicated by desire to excel, and succeed, and have all our needs met, and the most apparent needs are physical and material, followed by emotional and intellectual. Finally one comes to the awareness that spiritual reality is the ultimate reality, and the diminution of all fear.

Fear has hinged all aspects of your life. They have been purely human and this, of course, comprises most of your existence since you, like all others, are human and even as a student of the supernals you agree, are not entirely exempt from fear, as it is recurring and insidious in nature.

You have however found tools to utilize, to step out of the quagmire of fear, and find regained, renewed faith in your path, and as you experienced this week in returning from Thailand, and in returning from strange psychic places due to jet lag, your realities have now congealed and you now will proceed. You were correct in those interim days, to not allow fear to intercede to the point of distress. It is ever so much more beneficial to you, and to us, and to those who look to you for a reality base, when you have consciousness of your faith, and your interaction with cosmic intelligence and spirit.

We urge you to recognize what fear is, and when you now perceive it entering into your perceptions, to squelch it quickly and proceed in faith. I am here for you when you falter in fear, as you know. I am here to help you in your mortal concerns and, yes, fear is certainly one of those primary human concerns; however, you have learned well to look to the Father and His heavenly helpers to assuage your anxieties, by finding comfort in His presence, and in the presence of Christ Michael, and those who assist Him in leading you through the maze of life, to new levels of experience, reality and perfection.

Fear not, little girl, for you are loved and cared for and you are beginning to perceive that this is so. Your concern for financial stress, and mechanical failure, is a result of fear and were you to slow down and not feel as though you have to fix everything, even material items, you would find that we are willing to lead you along the path to success in all you do. All things work to the good of those who love the Lord. Persist in following your sense of freedom, and joy in spiritual connection, as this is the avenue through which you will walk, and all your earthly illusions will fall into place and prosper as you pass by.

You may rest in the knowledge that fear is no longer able to grip you, and paralyze you into submission, as you have now learned to surrender all to Our Father, who has only love for you and is interested in you further to ascend and serve. I will speak with you anon.

April 21, 1993

TOMAS: Good evening, Gerdean. This is Tomas. This is an interesting conversation you are having with yourself this evening. I am here to assure you that I, Tomas, am not you and the conversation I referred to was the one you have been toying with following your conversation with Christ Michael. I am actually a Teacher; I am not a god or a mini-god. I am a friend of yours and my motives and intentions are in accordance with the banner of Christ Michael. I have no desire to deceive you or betray your trust in your fragile faith, nor do I have any desire to undermine or belittle your worth, value, standing in the community or in your own existence.

You were discussing temporal confused state of affairs, and this is, as you acknowledge, probably a primary reason for Correcting Time, as it was and is a primary reason for the Fifth Epochal revelation to mankind, as you have, as a race, attained a certain level, evolutionary level, and are being fostered, furthered, into a new era. It is a forerunner role you play and it is peculiarly adapted to your personality or, shall I say, your personality is peculiarly adapted to your roll in our Mission.

You are vulnerable, you are open, and whereas when you are embroiled in temporal concerns and matters, you flounder and feel you are helpless and insane, when you allow yourself to focus on your own spiritual reality, you find you are able to function clearly and fluently and fluidly and for this we are grateful as we can use you to just that extent.

I and we realize that you are in a relative state of isolation in Albuquerque, and perhaps what you are feeling now, as you are embroiled with temporal business matters to concern yourself with, and there are no other apostles in your immediate vicinity, you may be feeling the let-down that Jeremiah referred to in March. Your trip has come and gone, and your response to people's inquiries regarding your exciting venture overseas is completed, and now it is in fact, indeed, back to "life on life's terms" (if we must use that phrase), and these overwhelming and muddied matters have a tendency to draw your energy downward, and in your down state you feel as though your imagination has gotten the best of you, and you are barking up a wrong tree, or pursuing some primrose path.

It is peculiar, we note, in mortals, that when you have a lack of fellowship and camaraderie and emotional support, you flounder and despair rapidly. We see Correcting Time as a method of upstepping and advancing enough persons to maintain that standard of belief, which disallows isolation and subsequent despair. Therefore, I am relieved and gratified that you allow my words to emit from your vocal chords, and assure you of your reality, not just in eternity, but here today. For even though the affairs of your realm are time-consuming, and inconvenient and, yes, expensive to you, assuredly they are time-consuming and inconvenient and expensive for us as well, as it detracts your attention from further service to other mortals who would appeal to you for encouragement.

As you noted this evening, however, even in difficult times and in mortal stresses it is possible for believers to manifest encouragement, and joy, and inspiration, to his fellows by simply accepting that life can be difficult and trying. We commend that you have not succumbed totally to the vagaries of human existence.

Having thus focused to some extent on some of your temporal concerns, I offer this channel to Trieste who has waited in abeyance for many days, waiting for your availability which, I perceive, has arrived. I will return.

TRIESTE: I am Trieste and I feel you warm to my presence, Gerdean, and this pleases me as we have not shared our intimate thoughts and feelings of late, and I have many things to share with you. Yes, Gerdean, I concur with Tomas that you are feeling a bit sorry for yourself and overwhelmed with life in general, and I assure you, my child, that you are not isolated, that Tomas and I are with you as we have been and will continue to be. True, many personalities are en route to Machiventa's possible materialization; however, we are staying here with you as you have your hands full temporally and, ideally, spiritually. Once your temporal nuisances are expedited, your service work can begin anew and you are a joyous worker in the field.

You have, I see, given some thought and voice to the seed I planted regarding your expectations of others, and how those expectations reflect upon the expectations you have of yourself. It is good to see you relax and abandon some of those illusory expectations which keep you constrained and without free flow and freedom, spiritual freedom. You are making inroads into this, and I encourage you to clarify and congeal some of your insights, and growth, so that you can more specifically elucidate your growth experiences for your peers.

I appreciate, Gerdean, your love for me, as I also have love for you. I am assigned to minister to your personal growth, and you see certain growth as a result of our budding friendship, but you hear my voice as academic, or static, and if I were to speak with you directly, soul to soul, spirit to personality, et cetera, you would find that my love is fluid and warm and flowing. I am not static in the least, Gerdean, and I would appreciate it if, when you think of me, you would think of me as a fellow creature of feminine charm and delicate nature in the highest sense. Like you, Gerdean, I am female. I am warm. I have compassion, I am tender, I am receptive and responsive and not frigid. I am open to life's gifts and love and laughter and joyous carefree feelings of peace and tranquillity and security. I am loved and I am satisfied. I introduce these qualities to you, Gerdean, so that you recognize that I am indeed your friend, your sister, your cousin, as well as your teacher. I am pleased to share this moment in time with you, and until we speak again, remember I stand with you in life and in love and in light.

TOMAS: Rest, Gerdean, with abandon and face tomorrow as a well-written page in the manuscript of life.

April 22, 1993

TOMAS: I am aware you are concerned about reality in-as-much as you have had your reality cast to the winds before. You also are aware that you survived and are a deeper-charactered worker in the field as a result of that very metamorphosing experience. You may learn this is another mind-bending venture into unreality and if you do, you will surely be brought through the learning experience to feel closer and more real to Our Father than prior to this transmitting/receiving phase of development, and that does not make this experience any less valuable. Real is real, and growing is growing and growing is real, also.

April 23, 1993

TOMAS: This is Tomas. Yes, Gerdean, I have time to speak with you. I am assigned here to your area and I enjoy our contact. I can appreciate your concern, that everyone might be occupied this evening in preparation for tomorrows anticipated materialization of Machiventa, however, that will not preclude our being able to visit as usual. Machiventa himself is available should you so desire; however, I honor your graciousness to allow him to compose himself for his re-entry into your material plane. As far as our awareness goes, it is in preparation and as you anticipate his appearance, we also anticipate his further ability to contact those mortals who are anxiously, willingly, joyously awaiting his imminent arrival. We are all in anticipation and will discover tomorrow what transpires.

We have utilized your energies and we appreciate your willingness to lend your energies to this enterprise. Many, many spiritual energies are being focused on that event and you will not he disappointed, nor will those in attendance. I am in that Corp of Teachers who are supportive of this manifestation, as we are under the jurisdiction of "Big Mac", and we joyously anticipate the further growth that will transpire once this materialization is accomplished. Much of our ability to accomplish this feat is due to the responsiveness of you in Correcting Time Mission who are willing to contribute your energy to this process and to this era.

We further request your contribution tomorrow toward enlightened invitation for such manifestation as is hoped to transpire. You are realizing through these past few days where your ultimate reality lies and your tests have been met and passed, and you are again comfortable with me and with your role as transmitter/receiver of our words and accept your role as assigned. We are working in this together and we appreciate your cooperation and your willingness and your faith. Go rest and prepare for tomorrow as an eventful day in the unfolding of light and life on your world. Much good will come from tomorrow.

April 25, 1993

TOMAS: This is Tomas, your Teacher. I am commissioned by Machiventa Melchizedek, as acting Planetary Prince, through the banner of Christ Michael, to impart to you certain lessons as we would have you absorb and convey to your fellows, in as much as you are committed to His will and to fostering the brotherhood of man on Urantia.

You already have learned to persevere in the face of isolation as an Agondonter and with faith that, in spite of your inability to see, you are aware of and believe in our presence, our supernal overcare, and our undying love for you as it is Michael's desire that we impart to you your isolation has ended and we are, in fact and indeed, ready for communication with you mortals as you mortals are ready to communicate with us.

We have not altered our course and we are attempting to proceed in the face of many people's doubts that we exist, and that this method of communication has reality, as many people are disillusioned with such phenomenon and pseudo-phenomenon. However, as we teach and as you learn, you will bear the fruits of our labors and the love of Christ Michael and you will be your own example of God doing through your life what could not be accomplished were it not for spirit connection, cooperation and liaison.

Blind faith, even, requires a belief in something other than reality as it is perceived by mortal eyes. It is literally true, you are called upon to be born again, born of the spirit and, once an entity is realized in the spirit, only opportunity presents itself for further growth and further reality. There are no backward steps written into your destiny path.

You will, Gerdean, indeed, receive information regarding the attempted materialization of Machiventa yesterday on your planet as you were advised by L. in Naperville. You assuredly will appreciate the response and I must say, were you slightly less toxic and slightly more in tune, you might be able to receive more factual details of yesterday's events. You are not, however, given that information and you should not feel lesser because you do not immediately understand the nature of the events that did transpire.

There are many things in Our Father's universe which are not understood by many of us and this is not disturbing to us as we have long since come to trust Our Father in all things, as Christ Michael trusted His Father in all matters, not excluding the matters of the Melchizedeks and the teachers and the supernals who attend you. Nor, as you know, should you debilitate yourself by trying to understand your fellow human beings overmuch, as many of the experiences experienced in this lifetime are for the individuals long-term growth and short-term observation will reveal only superficial answers to why such an experience occurred.

The whys and wherefores of spiritual growth are neither here nor there. Spiritual growth is unconscious. It is by your conscious decisions and more decisions, and by your sincerity and further sincerity that you ascend the ladder of spiritual consciousness, and spiritual devotion increases as you climb this ladder. As you ascend in The Father's Kingdom, you are given opportunity to serve your fellows in wider and vaster arenas and you ultimately are brought to a point of reaching the multitudes and this is, shall we say, generic. This is morontial. This is spiritual and by no means is this according to your understanding or your intellectualization of what you are contributing. As you well know, the less aware you are of your input into another's growth, the more growth that can occur, as free will on your world is supreme and for this reason you are encouraged to whet the appetites of your associates for truth.

And how does one do this? It is not by acting intellectually superior or philosophically replete, but in living the life and in answering the questions you have presented by living out the answers for their observation and then they may incorporate their own experience into their own evolving spiritual ladder. This is why any experience is good if it contributes to the understanding of the mortal's relationship with God, as they understand Him, of the Higher Power of our Father in Heaven, of Allah, of Buddha, of the Great Spirit, of the Most Highs. If it contributes to their recognition and understanding of this omniscient presence, then it has been beneficial.

It is indeed a truism that perhaps the best way to plant your seeds is for the right hand to not know what the left hand is doing. This is perhaps why, when you feel you are being a total airhead, you may be operating more in the spirit than if you were "under control" or "on top of it". The less on top of it you are, the more sense you can make to other spirit hungry souls.

TRIESTE: Greetings, Gerdean, this is Trieste. I am in attendance. I know everything you have been going through, everything you have been experiencing, all your joys, all your perceived limitations, all your disappointments in yourself and in your fellows. I am your companion. I find it all rather interesting and it is well that I find it interesting as this is where I am assigned. This is my assignment, as you are assigned to your assignment and you have followed it nobly in planting your trees and your seeds.

I plant my seeds and allow the Father to nourish the seed to fruition. I can fertilize the seed and water it, but it is through the light of the Son, Christ Michael, and The Father whereby the plant reaches and ascends, ultimately to bring forth fruit. I abide with you, Gerdean, and only ask that you utilize my presence more often and more fully for we will become one in purpose.

TOMAS: I am Tomas. And, yes, to a certain extent your personal teacher Trieste is guiding you in cooperation with your Thought Adjuster toward your ultimate fusion, toward your ultimate one-on-one communication with your Thought Adjuster, in a manner and in/through a personality which will not burn you, will not overwhelm you. Yes, this is a correct presumption/perception and I, yes, am your Teacher.

As you know, throughout the mansion worlds you will fall under the jurisdiction of the Order of Melchizedeks, and you have learning experiences outlined for you in your ascension plan which would be overseen by those teachers in the Order of Melchizedek which, of course, is under Machiventa Melchizedek, so you see, if and when Machiventa arrives, you are realizing an incredible event of incredible power and energy. It is a consideration that he needs to incarnate as before, for if he were to appear with all his power and dynamic energy, you would not be able to withstand the impact of his presence. This is not impossible; it is simply not that simple to accomplish, as he is your Planetary Prince and arrangements need to be made to baby-sit us all.

I am withdrawing for now and I encourage you to return to the original stillness and feel Our Father and feel the Spirit of Truth and see for yourself the Divine plan as you perceive it for yourself and for all of us in service to you, to your planet and to your Father. Good night, Gerdean, my loyal student .

April 27, 1993

TOMAS: Good evening, Gerdean. This is Tomas. I see your mortal circuits are busy with speculation and skepticism and I-told-you-so regarding Correcting Time Mission and I am very pleased that you opt to stand by your path and your desire to follow wherever the Master leads.

You are correct to turn to The Father and to the Father/Brother Christ Michael, for those entities, powers, cannot fail. Those of us Teachers under the direction of Machiventa Melchizedek have not failed either, nor have the humans who have waited patiently and impatiently for his materialization. This is not a simple matter. The important thing is that you maintain, retain, your faith in the living fact/truth of the teachers who attend you and minister to you in your travails and your experiences as you ascend.

We are involved in this Mission to assure you that you are no longer isolated in your cosmic bubble, that you are now a part of the swelling wave of the living water. We are assuring you, as you sit in faith and in belief of this reality, that what you experience is indeed truth.

There are those who are cautious, and yet, even those who are cautious, have felt a pang of disappointment that Machiventa, as you have learned, did not materialize as reported/reputed/scheduled. The sympathy and loving kindness that you would manifest to those who did not believe in the Mission is now overturned, and those readers of the Urantia Book who did not believe in the Mission are now in a position of feeling compassion for those who perceivably are disappointed.

This is an unfoldingment which is in accordance with His way of doing things in unfolding a new generation of believers, in unfolding this new era of the Fifth Epochal Revelation, of revealing to His children on earth this day the supernal personalities who attend you. There is much discussion about the personal teachers, the transmitter/receivers, and, yes, there are myriad T/R’s coming on-board and this is as it should be as we have told you, the channels of communication, the circuits of spiritual power and energy and light are open for your partaking.

Whether or not all are in agreement as to their perceptions and their time schedules is irrelevant. The true beauty of the Mission, at this point, is that we are in communication, that you are in communication, that you are no longer in isolation, that your fears of isolation are dissolving as you reach for us, and we reach for you in turn and assuage your fears with our reassurance that in fact and indeed we are here, we are a part of your evolving life henceforth. It is well for you to understand that we are, as it says in your text, hosts of spirit personalities just outside your vision who anxiously await contact so that we may help you in your growth and thus you may help your fellows in their growth.

This is not, obviously, for egoistic purposes. This phrase "chosen people" is not to be misconstrued. The Master Himself has said that many are called and few are chosen. Many are called on a daily basis and some struggle and some deny and some grasp and those who grasp, those who grab the ball and run with it, are in fact and indeed chosen to carry that ball they have asked for and caught.

You are sons and daughters of the Most High, and if that is not chosen, then what is?

Date Uncertain

TOMAS: To believe without seeing is the essence of being an Agondonter, for which you will have special experiences throughout eternity, for that ability to stand firm in the face of not seeing with your literal eyes but with morontia eyes that which is real.

You are overextending yourself, Gerdean. You are approaching life with such gusto you will not make it comfortably through the week unless you slow down. You do not have to be perfect all at once, nor does everything in the universe have to perfect now. In fact, even with your messes, your life is relatively perfect. Have you not experienced The Father? Are you not now sharing your faith and your belief in His wondrous works? And is that in and of itself not perfect?

The temporal matters you are applying yourself to with such gusto are fine pastimes and necessary maintenance, however, I join with Trieste in stating that your maintenance of your physical and spiritual programs are your highest priorities and you have done a fair job of setting both of those aside for these past two days. Granted you think about them both, but you have nearly overwhelmed yourself with tertiary experience at the expense of your physical health and your spiritual freedom.

You must learn to accept life with its messes. For these are constant. Yes, it is cyclic; yes, you will