Nebadonia—February 23, 2006

Marin T/M Group—Mill Valley, California—U. S. A.

NEBADONIA—T/R-JL

(Dimensions in being human)
(Functions of mind, worship, and wisdom)
(Unconditional love)
(The nature of pain within effort)
(Rest and renewal)
(You are a co-creator of your cosmos)

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael, We certainly do welcome Your warm
presence this winter evening that’s so blustery and wet outside. It reminds
us to seek Your presence whenever we encounter the other storms of life, be
they physical, mental, or spiritual. You help us find and stay at that calm
center within us, where we are able to handle all the better the most
turbulent activities. Amen.

Good evening, My brave and adventuresome sons, this is your mother,
Nebadonia, and I return your appreciation with My own for your coming to be
with Me this evening. Sometimes the hardships you go through in life makes
our getting together that much more precious. Thus we can value our times
together all the more. We can feel each other’s spirits.

(Dimensions in being human)

Tonight I would like to continue what Michael and I have been offering
lately, a way of your perceiving and appreciating all the many dimensions
you are capable of contacting. I’m happy you are being able to perceive how
spirit penetrates and gives value to your physical/bodily reality for, as
you know, these are intimately connected. It is your physical bodily sense
mechanisms that enable you to perceive the whole swirling world of energy
and matter about you.

Yet it is spirit that gives value to these physical realities. Like your
two eyes giving stereoscopic depth to your sight, so spirit is that depth of
meaning and value you find in all the physical world about you. It is a
part of the living aspect of all the plants and animals you know, and this
living aspect extends out into the cosmos itself, which as We have often
said is somewhat like the living body of God in time and space.

When you come to the many dimensions of mind, you are reminded that mind is
a gift of the Infinite Spirit, who provides the Cosmic Mind for that
enormous cosmos out there. It is this Cosmic Mind that funnels down through
Me to you. I am the daughter and the conduit of the Infinite Spirit. I
help fulfill the major function of mind for your order of created being, for
mind is what connects the pure spirit of your personality with your physical
body.

My Adjutants of Mind/Spirit combine with what you know as the mind functions
of your physical brain, to assist with this connection. At your stage of
existence you are dependent upon your physical brain for consciousness.
Still, while you are conscious, I myself, and the Infinite Spirit through
Me, are part of all your mental processes, right from the most fundamental.
The function of all mind, even from the lowest animals on up, is one of
quick association, tying together all the separate elements of your physical
being and your physical perceptions.

Then you have the mental quality of courage which literally encourages you
to explore your world, seek new facts and new meanings and relationships.
You have My Adjutant of Council which helps you be gregarious and form
meaningful friendships and relationships with your fellows. These you share
with the higher animals, your mammalian cousins of which you evidence some
traits. But it is My two highest Adjutants of Worship and Wisdom which
truly enable you to develop and then express your full human potential. And
so the converse is also true, My children. To the degree you can exercise
these functions of mind, the more truly human you become, the more depth of
experience you soul can enjoy.

Worship, or the thankfulness for life itself and all that it holds, is the
Mind/Spirit that helps you to appreciate what you have, to give it value and
meaning. It does not have to be any kind of formal prayer, for at times
your worship is most sincere when it is just a spontaneous bubbling over,
when you become your own little fountain of thankfulness and joy in God’s
creation. This is the most sincere form of worship when, from time to time
in your busy day, you simply feel and then say within yourself: Thank You,
Father.

When you get to the Adjutant of Wisdom, this Mind/Spirit helps you realize
all the rest of your mental abilities by uniting and coordinating,
organizing, comparing and contrasting all the rest of what you know, so your
life’s experience is available to you. This is the difference between mere
knowledge--however this knowledge is tied in with specific memories of when
you’ve acquired this or that fact--and wisdom, which enables you to apply
all of this hard-earned experience to the present moment. So it is wisdom
that gives depth of meaning to what you are experiencing, moment by moment.
This is what feeds your perception and enables you to make sense of the
enormous complexity you are taking in each second.

By the time you reach an average maturity, somewhere in your early twenties,
this wisdom is all so all-pervasive you can hardly be cognizant of it. It
is what each and every single individual slowly forms during their thousands
and thousands of hours of childhood. At times you only become aware of this
when you encounter something alien to you, such as writing in a foreign
language, or when you look at some detailed schematic of machinery or
electronics and realize all those meaningless squiggles--to you--make
perfect sense to someone else.

This is the counterpart within your mind that recognizes, re-cognizes, knows
again, everything you encounter. It is also constantly clearing from your
consciousness all that is repetitious so you can recognize, by way of a few
million years of evolution, something new coming into your environment, into
your reality that might possibly be threatening. It is this wisdom, tied in
with all your autonomic nervous system, that lets you immediately understand
why--when you get a flush of adrenalin as you start skidding on ice, or
merely miss your footing on a slippery floor.

(Functions of mind, worship, and wisdom)

We mention these functions of mind, My children, just to help you appreciate
all that has gone into making up who and what you are, and also remind you
that in your most inner and intimate sensation and experience of yourself,
you are not alone. Indeed, even loneliness is a separate creation of your
own mind, a kind of ignoring, or perhaps just not yet knowing, that I am
part of you.

Then, of course, there is Another. Since your order of personal beings,
human beings, is the furthest removed from pure divinity, the Sources--of
God Himself, the Eternal Son, and the Infinite Spirit, there is in God’s
plan this perfect compensation, this perfect balance, if you will, of
endowing His children most distant from Him, with a fragment of Himself.

We call this Mystery Monitor within your mind a fragment of God because,
somewhat like your own personality, it is a separate, individualized entity.
Yet We say it is a pre-personal fragment, a very special kind of entity
that experiences you and takes on your life, your personality’s experiences,
and in doing so becomes a co-creator of your soul. But since this is the
purest essence of God’s presence, He sees you and experiences you from His
perspective of the purest spirit. He can literally assist you in thinking
like Him. This is the function of adjusting your thoughts, working with all
your mental abilities to suggest the larger picture, the greater spiritual
environment in which you are living.

This is your connection to the Source. These are those sublime thoughts you
can recognize from time to time by their startling quality, and yet your
Father Fragment’s thought-adjusting is continuous. It’s always there as a
background, and as the connection that ever points you towards spirit for
its all-inclusive grasp of an ever greater reality.

If you think back on your childhood, and adolescence especially, these are
those notions you had from time to time of how things worked, insights as to
how things were connected and made sense. This was your Thought Adjuster,
My children, and so this is an inseparable part of you already. This is
that enormous treasure that is accumulating as your soul, like an immense
vault We tease you into trying to open by inviting you to contact your soul
. Be aware of and appreciate all this life you’ve lived, and We promise you
some day, in the very certain future for you, this door will be open wide.
Your consciousness will have expanded equally enormously, and you will
become one with this presence of God.

Michael has told you several times of how He so treasured and appreciated
His human life, that even though He had become a self-conscious Creator Son
of God and had the power to lay down His life, and take it up again, still
in all, He treasured your precious moment-to-moment living so much He stayed
with His human body and His human mind right to the very last moment. Now
We both invite you to do the same. Treasure these lives you have been
given, and with all the power and generosity you can muster, treasure
everyone else’s as well.

You live on a socially and politically immature planet, My children, where
violence is still all too prevalent, with a disrespect for life, even one’s
own life, still all too common. One of the main purposes of Our lessons is
to detail, and so reassure you, of the eternal life that is potentially
yours, and assuage your fear of death. For the reason that your life to
come is so intrinsically similar to the one you are living now, each moment
now is just as precious as any to come. This is the eternal, living Now,
and the appreciation and the love and respect for all of life always begins
now. What is a gift without appreciation? You were given free will. The
choice is yours to reflect this appreciation back to the Giver, or not.
Make your choice with wisdom and love. If you have any questions or
comments this evening, I truly appreciate them.

Student: Mother Nebadonia, I don’t have a question, just a comment, just
Thank You for all the information, the accurate information You’ve given us,
and allowing us to make our decisions on our own--whether they were right or
whether they were wrong. And not judging us when we make a wrong decision,
or take the wrong road, and finally get back to the correct path, and
welcoming us back with open arms. Just: Thank You.

(Unconditional love)

NEBADONIA: Well, C , My son, you are so welcome, for it is you who enable
Us to manifest Our unconditional love. You know, We see you, dear children,
all bound up in conditions. It is the essence of the life you are living
now--with some small measure of independence, still to be so largely
dependent on all the conditions that were truly accidental from your point
of view. For while it is true that from the point of view of the Supreme
Being, there are no accidents, there is no happenstance or pure coincidence,
from the other extreme--the human point of view, almost everything is
somewhat accidental, starting with your parents, family, society, culture;
even the time--the moment in history into which you were born, on this one
particular planet out of trillions.

So We try Our best to express to you some of these conditions of being human
in the hopes that you too can grow in your hearts an equally unconditional
love for your fellows--by appreciating all the conditions that both bless
and afflict them quite beyond their ability to change. This is not any
notion or concept of fate. It is the ability to perceive and appreciate, in
turn, the happenstance of each individual life. We love you
unconditionally, and appreciate it all the more when you recognize this, My
son. And so We thank you. And continue to be in My love.

Student: Thanks, Mother.

Student: Yes, Mother, I apologize for kind-of drifting in and out of what
was said tonight. There’s been a lot of things on my mind, and I guess the
topics were kind-of real deep, but I look forward to reading about it in the
transcripts, to get the full meaning of what was being said tonight. I
would like to focus on, I guess, my reluctance to acknowledge and to live my
own power that is God-given.

I feel that I resist that sometimes, for whatever reason, not to…not to
shake up things too much. Now I feel like…I’m really struggling right now
to articulate what I want to ask. All I know is I need to step into the
unknown, for my own self, my own self-preservation… (long pause) I’m
feeling this intense energy in my being, in my head.

NEBADONIA: That’s just Me.

Student: Yes, I know, I know. (laughing)

(The nature of pain within effort)

NEBADONIA: Just rest awhile, My son. This effort you are making is the
very stretching We have called upon you to try, and over the past several
weeks with both Michael and Myself, you have expressed well this living
balance of the need to make decisions, but within a context of concern, both
for yourself and others. So I tried to call your attention, not to the
effort itself, which is very commendable and necessary to be fully human and
to really care, but to the pain you were experiencing.

Maybe we can focus on this a little more sharply. Ask yourself if this
isn’t some kind of unnecessary judgment, if this pain doesn’t suggest that
your effort is somehow superfluous or unnecessary. That’s why I asked, not
why you are making this effort to be both decisive and sensitive, but why
does it hurt? One reason could be a notion that somehow this choice should
be easier or somewhat automatic. Because it isn’t, it becomes a worry, a
kind of relentless anxiety, the way out of which I invited you to do your
considering in pulses.

It’s not vainglory or egotism to value this effort you are making and to
rest content for a while, happy that you are making this effort, and that
this effort is keeping you in intimate contact with those you love. For you
are slowly growing your spiritual power to decide, then to remember all that
went into your decision. Then you have it as a real possession, if you
will, as another access to your soul. Sometimes the only way out of an
anxious situation is this kind of spiritual maturity, this growing to
encompass both aspects which seem to be diametrically opposed. So I
encourage you to keep up the good work, the good effort. Grow your wisdom
to give you foresight, for this ability to see things coming helps you make
these decisions.

Value more your awareness of your own judgmental nature--when you are
judging others as to their incapability. This awareness is just another
form of patience, and giving others time. You may have to decide day to
day, even moment to moment, to accept an ongoing situation that is not yet
ripe for action. Throughout all of this I’m pointing to an ability to rest
and accept yourself so that you are able to steer your course through life
more positively, and not so negatively--by simply avoiding pain.

Student: I guess things like the human element covers the pain within me,
my own impatience to get things moving, because in a sense a decision has
been made. But also--I think I’ve mentioned in the past--to honor this
place, and the pace of the other people involved, and what they need to do.
I guess what I feel sometimes, besides the impatience, is my own expectation
or wants, wanting things to be different, wanting my home life to be
different, my work life to be different. I want to be doing something
different, and my relationship with my daughter to be different. Even
though that is really positive, I want that to be different, the
circumstances to be different.

I know I have held onto the notion of wanting her to live with me again, in
her own room, while everyone else moves out. And so I’m just like, I’m like
acting like I’m the juggler and all these human souls are in my hands. I
remember, I think it was You, or both of You, Michael and You who said,
sometimes a choice that I have to make, I’m making for two, or for many.

And that is an awesome responsibility--how it affects everyone involved--so
I guess the angst that goes on within me is the constant crunch of the
decisions we have made, and how it effects the other people. But I do take
that into account. I go through a lot of consternation over that, and
trying to sort out where I am in these feelings. So I have great concern
for the wellbeing of the others who are affected by our decisions.

NEBADONIA: My son, these are the very things that I encourage you to be
open to, so they should not be causing all this pain. Isn’t this the notion
that somehow you needn’t do all this, (Yes) this is all superfluous and
unnecessary? I’m telling you it is not, if you wish to be fully human and
sensitive and caring. (Yes)

One other thing I could point out is that, in looking towards the future and
what you would want to see happen in terms of your home life and your work;
this is where your own creativity has to come into play. You literately
have to create these alternatives for yourself, and yes, even for others, at
times, to help them along. The worry is a kind of a short-circuit of your
energy, constantly running your battery down, making you feel all that much
more powerless. So give yourself credit for these good things you do and
feel. Deep in your stillness and your meditation, get back to the good
sense of who you are.

For all decisions tend to separate, like a sharp knife, in choosing between
this and that, and affecting your reality. So this is where--after the
decision, you stay open to the consequences, and reunite with yourself
again, for you too will have changed as a consequence. This is the function
of your spirit, your personality. You take a break to gather back into
yourself, and re-realize who you are now.

Again: I invite you to read and re-read these words, because this is another
way of getting a sense of yourself.

Student: Yeah, it really helps reading and re-reading the past transcripts
about this topic, about the idea of freedom, and where is my freedom in all
this, instead of feeling like I’m being dragged along for the ride. First
of all, why do I allow myself to feel that way, but also to look at my own
sense of freedom, and to empower myself, and to be clear about who I am and
what I want. So I do thank You for these lessons.

(Rest and renewal)

NEBADONIA: You are very welcome, My son. I assure you they are of great
value to others out there, so it is worthwhile for them too, that we show
each other patience following all these little threads. There is also that
wonderful poem that invites us to rest and sleep deeply, “to knit up the
raveled sleeve of care.” This is the renewal. This is the coming home to
home base. This is the reuniting with yourselves. This is approaching the
One. Feel yourselves being in My love.

NEBADONIA: Was there anything you wished to say, or ask, J ?

Student: It seems to describe--the later part of the talk seems to describe
my situation very well.

NEBADONIA: Yes, this is the priceless quality of rest and renewal,
gathering up your strength and your courage to actually and genuinely look
forward to a new day. Realize these alternating phases of effort and rest
are part of the Big Plan, part of God’s purpose that creates pulses in time
and reality. Give yourself credit for the adventures you find yourself in.
Accept the enormous price they do demand on all levels of your
being--physical, mental, and spiritual. You are constantly using up these
energies. So sometimes the adventure is simply finding new sources, seeking
and yearning for more life, and accepting the truly heavy weight, that both
the creativity and the choices must come from within you.

(You are a co-creator of your cosmos)

This is why you were made to be the co-creator of your reality. You create
with God himself, your cosmos. And for this fact: it is yours. You have a
part to play, so play it well and enjoy the challenge. These are always
glorious times, yet it may be truly scary for you, at times, that it is
nothing less. So seek, and then welcome Michael’s peace and My love. They
too are yours, My son. Be in My love.

What a remarkably ungraspable thing this is, this life you are living, is it
not? You can never quite hold it, for it holds you. And yet you can never
quite stop trying, for this is how you grow. This is how you extend your
faith like the most delicate antennae, feeling for what’s coming next. We
can only inform you, it will keep getting larger. This is your glorious
destiny, My children. It is what you were made for, and because you help
create it, it is truly yours. Nothing shy of this could ever do. And so,
moment to moment, it is why you seek and struggle to be perfect. Yet
however far you are from that goal, just starting out as you are, you are
already complete. Now rest and be in My love. Good evening.