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Subject: [tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 1.30.06
Date: Wednesday, February 08, 2006 9:46 PM

Nebadonia—January 30, 2006

Marin TM Group—Mill Valley—U. S. A.

Nebadonia—T/R-JL

(All spirit is personal)
(The courage to question ones concepts)
(Deja-vu)
(Archetypes and individuality)
(Solar system dynamics and earth stability)
(Does heaven already exist somehow on earth?)
(Staying out of trouble, or not)

Dear Mother Spirit and Michael, Mother, we greatly enjoyed Your last
lesson on the spiritual nature of truth, for it reminded us that only spirit
is all inclusive. You brought us closer to the greater truth: that truth
itself, while it can never be our possession, can be our orientation and our
goal. It can be our eternity-quest. And so it is at one and the same time
the real, present bedrock of our life, and the eternal encompassing that we
seek both within and without--the presence of God. Amen.

NEBADONIA: Good evening, My children, this is your Mother, Nebadonia, and I
accept your greetings with a warm heart. If you will only let Me, I will
return your love many-fold. Congratulations are in order too, for you are
taking My lessons to heart and gleaning the truth within them.

(All spirit is personal)

This is so closely tied in with Our lessons on humility, and what a
spiritual blessing it is to be able to perceive that the context of your
lives is truly enormous. This is true not only in the physical dimensions
of time and space--those millions of galaxies out there, some of them
billions of light-years from your little blue sphere, but also in the
unfathomable meaning of so many thousands of different kinds of spiritual
beings who form a family of which you too are a member. This was Michael’s
prime lesson last week, that all spirit is personal. It is a kind of
radiance from a personal being, and the primal, original source is God
himself.

His nature, which we call divinity or that which is divine, is most nearly
expressed by the English word: sharing. This is why we exist, why the
cosmos exists: God wishes to share His power, His creativity, His awareness,
His joy with all of us. But keep in mind too, we are increasing by the
endless trillions on literally billions of inhabited planets much like
Urantia. Your scientific observations are correct, the universe is
expanding space-wise. But you have to accept it from Us as a matter of
faith that the number of inhabited planets throughout the seven inhabited
Super Universes, these too are multiplying; just as there are more and more
human beings everyday on Urantia.

This is God’s doing. He is the source of all these blossoming, personal
beings. It’s interesting. If you pay very strict attention within
yourselves, you can imagine and feel this expansion, but only momentarily,
for it fits in with your expression: it blows your mind. It’s a real,
happening expansion, but it cannot be captured by your mind, either.

Faith is that quality within human reality that lets you realize the
fundamental reality--your unique personality--that you are. This is that
God-creation that realizes, makes real, all the different facets of your
being: your sense perceptions, your mind organization giving meaning to
these physical facts, then your spirit too, of which you are all continually
surprised, is part Me. I am actually part of your thinking, part of your
knowing, part of your mind. Yet it is your personality which makes
everything real to yourself. So with your intrinsic powers of spirit you
can realize, through faith, that which you cannot know by any other means.
This, if you will, is the function of faith.

(The courage to question ones concepts)

Your personality--you, originating from God, can have a quality of
recognition so that when your faith informs you of something, this quality
of recognition lets you realize it. But this is not absolutely infallible,
My children. Here is where it takes the courage of the character you have
built up from experience, to question everything that your mind can grasp as
a concept and articulate to you. This is why your faith is ever out in front
of you like a pathfinder, always reaching for more that what you have
already fully comprehended. Your faith is always struggling to find truth,
to find spirit, to find God. And here most of you have experienced
sometimes, if only momentarily, the ineffable, ungraspable, inexpressible
pure substance of the Divine.

But the function of your mind is to try to express this to you, partly so
you can have it as a memory, partly so you can share it. Yet insofar as
ultimate truth is the very encompassing of your life, all that you do posses
in concepts and meaning is open to your courageous questioning. This is how
you remind yourself, My children. This is how you stay humble to the fact
that the truth itself is ever beyond any expression of it.

No pun intended, but this is truth’s wondrous quality, the quality that
invokes wonder by its presence. It calls to you and leads you to God’s ever
greater encompassing--Himself. All the while--you are correct, it is your
very bedrock. It is the most solid ground on which you base your eternal
life. In your stillness, you embrace its living qualities. There is a
knack to this. It takes a bit of doing. If you can just watch your own
breath, you can learn how to observe something that you can control, but
choose not to. You can be a little more still and feel your heart beating
without deliberately feeling for your pulse. Ever more still you can feel
the extremely subtle background of your higher consciousness. And yet
beyond this is the soft, tingling, higher floating-down of Our presence and
love.

Then you notice it’s very large in here. There are really no limits to
dimensions in here. There is no final demarcation between in here and out
there. This is how spirit permeates all. This is where you and your Father
Fragment, the Mystery Monitor whereby God experiences you, this is where you
are both already one. This is where He has already been part of everything
you can recall. It’s just nice to be consciousness of it.

You can invite Michael and I into your lives. You can send a heartfelt
Thank You to your Father Presence, and your Guardian Angel, every so often.
Are you beginning to feel like a little crowd walking along? This is also
part of the truth, and why wait for your Morontia life to be aware of it?
Your soul is already halfway there, so in your stillness you can have some
foretaste of what is to come. For this too, if you will, is part of The
Plan.

You were created with this potential, My children. Enjoy it now and let it
lead you to greater health, to greater strength and power, to greater
openness to enjoy your dear fellow friends while you are all still alive in
this first phase of your existence. This is the wonder of it all, calling
you to join the dance.

If you have any questions or comments this evening, we can do little
do-se-do.

Student: Mother Nebadonia, I have what might be called a general
information question. I’ve been experiencing what we call deja-vu, ever
since I can remember it, mainly from high school on. I’m just wondering
what it is and why do I experience it?

(Deja-vu)

NEBADONIA: Yes, C, the term generally means momentarily experiencing a kind
of double consciousness. Part of you knows very securely that the situation
you are in is happening for the first time, however similar it may be to
even dozens and dozens of other times; still you know this has never
happened before. At the same time you are getting some inklings or some
other consciousness--for however long, sometimes only a few seconds--feeling
that this exact situation did happen before, and you are repeating it.

I hope I’m not disappointing any notions of profound psychic intuition here,
but this is generally only a psychological phenomena where your mind is
momentarily distracted and functioning on two relatively autonomous channels
at the same time. For most people the consciousness that this is happening
brings it to an abrupt stop. This is very similar to peripheral
hallucinations or visual distortions that vanish as soon as your
consciousness turns toward them to get a hold on them, and finds they simply
disappear.

You may find it interesting to note that there is an exact opposite to
deja-vu and, as you say, the French have a word for it too. It’s called
jamais-vu or “never-seen.” This is where you are not in a new situation,
but in a very familiar one, perhaps going down the sidewalk to the corner
store to buy something as you have done hundreds of times in the past. All
of a sudden everything seems startlingly new as if you have never done this
before. Unfortunately, as delightful as this sensation can be, it too is
usually very short as your mind automatically tries to grasp hold of it, to
realize it. You find yourself wishing they would happen longer, for the
charm of these moments; but then they are all too fleeting. Does this match
your experience, My son?

Student: Yes, Mother it does, very much so. I guess I’m going to have to
give up my profound spiritual ideas about these times being…real.

NEBADONIA: I’m afraid so. (group laughter) They are very charming, as if
you were momentarily in some science-fiction time-traveling, or in what you
might call a closed temporal loop where everything is repeating itself. But
I’m afraid these only happen in the movies.

At the same time I will tease you with the very real truth that time is
infinitely more complex than what you have yet experienced. But this too
awaits a later time and an altogether profound re-birth on what you call The
Other Side. Do you have any more questions?

Student: No, Mother, I don’t. Thank You for the answer clearing that up.
I look forward to that profound experience on The Other Side. Thank You.

NEBADONIA: You are most welcome, My son. You will not be disappointed.
Meanwhile, be in My love.

Student: Mother Nebadonia, I have a question for You to answer, if You
would please. I’ve noticed for the few years that I began the discovery, of
knowing that I’m going through a recycling or re-birthing of some things
that happened to me twenty years ago. One of these started last year in the
form of an archetype of a person that--I really don’t understand or know why
I’ve encountered, or experienced, or have met this person. He has some
traits that are like my former husband, and it’s just been a big puzzle. I
don’t know what to do with the information other than, just have…found
contact--that has gone on with it--a compliment, so extreme in some places;
and yet no true connectivity results. What is happening?

(Archetypes and individuality)

NEBADONIA: Yes, My daughter, it seems this is another case of experiencing
two facets of a single reality simultaneously and not knowing where exactly
the balance is. The word archetype generally refers, as the name implies,
to something typical, a type-aspect of a human being that many individuals
share. You have your classical archetypes of mother, father, son, and
daughter, sister and brother.

If I understand you, you’ve encountered someone who shares many profound
traits with your previous husband. Perhaps the puzzling comes about when
you do recognize that, however many similar traits these two persons share,
they are separate individuals; and archetypes, My daughter, can be very
abstract. In this they’re somewhat like a stereotype. And so I sense your
dilemma is how to discover which is what. What is the true personality of
this new person you’ve recently found? For to do so, you will have to
penetrate your own projections, your own ways of wanting to see in him
certain traits you may fear have been lost to you, in your former husband.

We’ve given quite a few lessons on the reality of projection. The fact is,
as you go about your day to day life, you yourself are a part of everything
you encounter outside of yourself, in terms of meanings and values. These
actually affect--and are part of--your perceptions. Since this is the
general human condition, it helps to be aware of it. To be open to seeing
each person as an individual requires penetrating your own projections, and
appreciating the uniqueness of their God-given personality.

This may call for a certain kind of sacrifice. You have to give up the
notion that you can somehow repeat, or make up for past experiences. This
is a very sweet, romantic notion, but it is an illusion. The past is
inherently irrecoverable. I do appreciate your desire, My daughter, to find
the truth, to see beyond or through the archetype to the unique individual
himself. Does this help you understand the situation? Does it seem to
apply?

Student: Yes, it does. Thank You.

NEBADONIA: As Michael commended last week, it does take courage to pursue
the truth in these situations, because there is a choice to be made when
confronted with a sweet illusion, and what you call the cold hard truth; or
what you call at other times the nitty-gritty, when the warm, living flow of
life seems to have a few cinders embedded in it. But the reward, My
daughter, is this bright, shinning, unique personality, if you can only
perceive him. Do you have any other questions along this line, or others?

Student: What is to be learned from the experience, or have I already
learned what I needed to…actively want?

NEBADONIA: There is much to be learned, not in the least part, how your
mind works. Chalk this one up to self knowledge, for by way of this self
knowledge you should be able to get a more comprehensive truth on both these
other personalities, your former husband and your new acquaintance. You can
see what they have in common and, hopefully, how they are unique. If you
are open to it, this is all for the good. I think you still have some more
to learn; so don’t close the books yet, but keep your wonder strong.

Student: OK, thank You.

NEBADONIA: You are very welcome; be in My love.

Student: Well, I have a question for you, Nebadonia, tonight, that’s kind
of a science question--since You mentioned science and consciousness, I
guess as You call it. You alluded to the big universe out there and the
planets, the Super Universes. This is a question about the solar system and
our planet Urantia, and I wonder if this is something You can answer.
Perhaps it’s something not for mortals to know about.

It’s good to think, to look at the issues that are happening with the
changes, the earth changes on our planet, because it would appear that
things like hurricane Katrina are being caused by global warming, and some
of that’s man made. But I’ve seen in some transmissions, some other notions
about where the heating is coming from. I also have noted that there is a
phenomenon of global warming on the planet Mars, and it would appear that
perhaps the sun is changing and heating up both the earth and other planets
now; and that even, in fact, that could be one of the reasons why we had
Katrina and all the other events of strange weather that we are
experiencing. I wonder if You can say anything about that, whether the
solar system is the cause, the primary cause, and not man made global
warming.

And secondly, whatever may be the cause of the weather instability, can
human consciousness and prayer affect the changes in the weather and the
earth? Directly or indirectly? So it’s a two part question: whatever You
can say about the causes of this bizarre weather, and other changes on the
earth; and also, can human consciousness affect that, and alter the course
of that?

(Solar system dynamics and earth stability)

NEBADONIA: Yes, My son, as to the causes of some of your recent upheavals,
I would say they are still very much within the parameters of what the earth
itself and its ecosystems--irrespective of human kind--are capable of
manifesting. Some of the longer or more broad cycles, as you know, have led
to, on one extreme, extensive ice ages, and on the other extreme, extensive
de-forestation and desert-like conditions. (Yes) Yet within these great
cycles which are totally natural, human influenced global warming is a fact,
a very minor one by comparison, but still there. You cannot dump trillions
of calories of heat into the atmosphere and not have some effect.

It’s hard to quantify these exactly because seasons such as you’ve just gone
through with so many hurricanes are well within the normal range of natural
fluctuations. The more you understand your weather and are able to
interpret history, you realize there have been what you might call natural
mini-ice-ages, (Yes) several centuries apart; whereas in other parts of the
world the major human effect has been one of de-forestation--in South
American rain forests and previously in Africa, where the forests have been
cleared for human cultivation. In parts of India and China there has been
enormous de-forestation just for firewood. (Right)

Meanwhile the oceans are relatively intact, perhaps not along the
shorelines, where you go swimming, but in their enormous depths, and it is
the fluctuations of the various ocean currents, you are beginning to
understand, which give rise to your cycles of seasonal changes. (Yes) These
are yet far beyond the ability of human consciousness to effect directly.
The way your Urantia book puts it, the direct manipulation of physical
realities by the personality is a Creator prerogative. (Yes) This is not to
say that at some future date, or on those more greatly advanced inhabited
worlds, this is an impossibility. (Yes)

But the control of the weather on Urantia is still, for quite a few
millennia to come, a matter of physical control and not susceptible to
direct spiritual responses. (Yes) This is another one of those humbling
facts, and you can do your best by looking for physical causes--your own
human uses of energy that impact upon global warming. Does this begin to
answer your question, My son?

Student: It sure does. Most of the pieces have been addressed. I’ll just
kind-of restate one part again. You know, from time to time, we see these
predictions of the earth changes, and the current one that’s come across to
some of us is an indication that there’s a change in the solar system--that
it’s solar system wide. It is caused by perturbations brought about by the
tenth planet crossing closer to the solar system, which is one of the key
features causing changes on the earth through, if I understand right, the
heating up of the sun and perturbations in the sun’s energy. This is
causing not only weather change here, but actual earth motion of the
tectonic plates. Here again I understand that there may be things that
should not be revealed. But if there is anything You can say on that, it
would be helpful for me to, You know, to work through this current issue.

NEBADONIA: I believe what will help your understanding of these purely
physical phenomena is the appreciation of the masses and distances involved.
(Yes) The planets have very little effect on the sun. (Yes) A single solar
flare, even a minor one, could easily engulf all the planets, swallow them
without a trace. Even the so-called effects of planetary alignment are
mostly astrological, and not truly astronomical. (Wow)

The mass and the nearness of the moon does effect your tides and the
sub-tectonic plate circulation of magma, but still the tectonic plates float
on this sea of molten rock and are relatively undisturbed by the moon. (Yes)
They have their own internal forces, which, as you know, tend to split the
larger masses of a continent. This is what you have to keep in mind, My
son--the distances involved and the relative masses. This has been a long
study of mankind, how to separate astrology and astronomy.

The planets have very little effect on the sun. (Yes) Keep in mind too, the
sun has its own internal cycles it goes through, and it has been getting
more and more stable as the millions of years pass. Does this answer your
question?

Student: You’ve gone very far afield with me and I appreciate it so much,
and the T/R as well in this little inquiry, so I’ll let that rest for now.
It was very helpful. That’s fine. Thank You very kindly.

NEBADONIA: You are most welcome, My son. It is always interesting to
contemplate these purely physical wonders of God’s creativity.

Student: Isn’t it so. I think it’s part of our spiritual growth as well.

NEBADONIA: It is awfully big out here. (laughter) So know you are in My
love.

Student: Yes, Mother, there’s hundreds of things going through my mind
right now, in what I heard tonight. But one thing you just said to B about
human consciousness not affecting what’s going on, on this planet: are we
not creating an imbalance because we lack consciousness--that we have more
of these phenomena, earthquakes and tsunamis and hurricanes, because we are
lacking consciousness, that we give our power away without understanding,
away to greed and the desire to have power over nature? If mankind is able
to raise the consciousness to that of what was intended, wouldn’t this
kind-of be a whole different form in the placement of living?

(Solar system dynamics and earth stability)

NEBADONIA: My son, keep in mind that mankind mainly effects mankind, not
the planet. The major effect of mankind’s gradual enlightenment and
cultural maturity has a direct effect upon other people. A reduction in
warfare and crime has the most profound effect on the net happiness of the
human race. But these are still largely economic issues, and so a more
equitable distribution of wealth and the access to energy, a greater
conservation and wise utilization in the preservation of natural resources;
these would enormously benefit all mankind, but have little effect on the
physical planet itself in terms of earthquakes and huge weather phenomena.
This is what I meant in answer to B’s question, that mankind is slowly
creating a small effect in global warming, it is true. It does exist. But
it’s still very small, and so mankind’s enlightenment would most immediately
and profoundly effect other people, but have only a minor effect on the
planet itself. Does this help you separate these two realms?

Student: Yes it does, because when You first started answering that we
don’t have an effect upon the planet, You said how we are affecting the
Amazon and the rainforests, and the de-forestation and all that, how it
affects us. But also I remember hearing many years ago, some spiritual
teacher saying that if human beings left things as they were, didn’t
pollute, didn’t cut down more trees, didn’t do all this other stuff that we
are doing, that this planet could be healed in seven years. Is this true?

NEBADONIA: In all these questions what is needed most is a sense of
proportion. Yes, mankind does effect the planet, but you must keep in mind
too, that the energy generated by a very small plate shift, such as created
the enormous tsunami last year--the energy released is almost incalculable
by human standards. In other words, there is no way mankind effects plate
tectonics.

When you talk about healing the planet meaning healing the human
relationship with the planet, for other humans: yes. If you could push a
button and have everybody be enormously enlightened tomorrow, certainly
within a decade the amount of human suffering through simple starvation,
malnutrition, exposure, let alone the episodes of genocide that still break
out and take the lives of hundreds of thousands--this is still the world you
are living on, My son--this is what would be most immediately benefited by a
greater overall enlightenment: simple compassion for your fellows.

So this is the work before us, is it not? This is the work before all of
us, Michael and I included. It was for this He lived His life with you; and
also for all the other worlds of our Local Universe. His human life was not
only an expression of God for all the humans and personal beings living—all
Our children, it was also an expression to God, and us, of what was possible
in a human life: both. There is real work to be done in the universe, and
it would be a true hell if there were not. This is almost the meaning of
meaning itself.

Student: May I say one thing, Mother?

NEBADONIA: Sure.

Student: I just remembered, because I have it on my wall, something James
understood about Jesus. James was thrilled to understand that He just
wanted us to live on this planet as if it were Heaven. I think that’s the
most profound thing one can take in, that heaven already exists here beyond
this veil of sorrow and grief and oppression.

(Does heaven already exist somehow on earth?)

NEBADONIA: Well, not for nothing are these planets called the nurseries of
time and space, the origin of potentially eternal beings. If I’m not
mistaken this is what I invited you to realize this evening--the next phase
of your lives, which I promise you will find far exceeds your most heavenly
notions. This exists, in part, right within your very own souls, created by
the presence of God within you.

Truly, from Our point of view, with the full view of your souls, My son, We
see the enormity and can appreciate the vastness of what you are, that you
can only get little glimmerings of. But Heaven is not here yet. The soul
wealth is here. We’ve also given these perhaps strange-seeming lessons on
how, while you are yet only beginning to start, and taking the very first
step on the road to perfection, you are nevertheless, moment by moment,
complete--whether you can realize it or not. You may just have to take My
word for it. (long pause)

But you may always make a comment or ask questions, My son. As you notice,
that’s partly why I kind-of sign off these exchanges and say, Be in My love,
to signal My answer is through. (long pause) So! Do you have any more
comments or questions? (laughter)

Student: This would be on what I wanted to talk about tonight, or ask
about. I guess this one thing that I was thinking about was my own self
respect, and how I come to understand, in my relationship with
others--certain intimate relationships, how sometimes I get challenged and I
accommodate the other persons values, overriding my own to my own detriment.
Then I go through, in a sense, a crisis within myself, that I’m not being
true to myself, and so I desire to stop doing that. I desire to honor who I
am and not lose myself anymore. That’s the lesson I learned this week.

(Staying out of trouble, or not)

NEBADONIA: Good! (group laughter) You have a very good grasp of the
situation, after it’s happened. Now the trick is to see it coming.

Student: You and Michael always say to trust my wisdom, and sometimes I
don’t realize how wise I might be, because it’s never been honored.

NEBADONIA: But what you are asking, My son, is: you’ve already found out
how to cope with these things after they happen; it’s how to see them
coming. (Yeah) That’s another whole ball game, as you say. That takes a
greater sensitivity. It’s like our old bug-a-boo of Monday Morning
Quarterbacking again. (laughter)

Some things you do have to try in order to know. Then there are some things
you would sincerely hope you would not have to try, and run head on into, in
order to know they are there. This calls for greater sensitivity, and being
open to your own wisdom. It may mean curtailing or seeing through some
momentary promise, to realize it will not seem worthwhile afterwards.

You know this in a physical sense. Your experience working has put you at
physical risk from time to time in certain situations, and you know how fast
certain dangers can pop up. So you have to see these dangerous situations
coming before they happen. Similarly, try to understand what it was that
enticed you into these--what you call--mistakes. What was the promise that
later fell flat? Does this make sense?

Student: I’ve asked that question myself. I have asked honestly, what is
the pattern? What is going on within me as I’m going through this, or prior
to that? Is it an over-generous heart? Is it being over-idealistic and
optimistic without the realism and the full spectrum of everyone? That is
what is going on, and I thank You.

NEBADONIA: Well, persevere. Like so many other things, it’s your sense of
proportion because so often the answer is: all of the above--to some degree.
And some of the things that get you into trouble are, strangely enough, at
times, well worthwhile, such as being overly generous, or entertaining
another’s propositions with all your heart. I’ll even say some trouble is
well worth getting into. That’s why it’s called an adventure. The more you
think about it, one definition of adventure might be: that which you cannot
know beforehand. And so you recognize once again how you are standing on
the edge of the unknown, and calling it home.

Student: And also leaving the baggage behind, that I do not want anymore.
And take the next step.

NEBADONIA: Let’s say amen to that! (Group: amen!) And Be in My love.

Well, My children, we’ve thrown a big loop around it tonight. (laughter)
And so we let the circle close in upon itself. Yet I’m always here right in
the middle. I know it must seem strange to you, that so much of what you’ve
always felt was only your own mind, is more than you. Yet it’s always been
this way. We’re only inviting you to add a quotient of appreciation. So
off you go to bed, sleep well. Have a nice journey home, C. (Thank You,
Mother) Thanks to you for the love; I can feel it radiating to Me. Please
let Me return it. Good evening.

Group: Good evening; Thank You, Mother.