From: "JERRY LANE" <nytrayn@msn.com>
To: <TMTranscripts@circuit1.teamcircuits.com>
Subject: [tmtranscripts] Nebadonia 4.25.05 - Phenomenal Reality
Date: Friday, April 29, 2005 11:38 AM

Dear Folks, Here's Mother's next message on the phenomenal world we live
in - and just Who created it to be this way. Jerry.

Nebadonia 4.25.05

Marin TM Group

Dear Michael and Mother Nebadonia, Welcome. We invite You into our lives
and we give You permission to enter us in any way You see fit. Help us
expand our own minds into Your greater one, especially in Your adjuncts of
wisdom and worship. Help us see things as You do. Help us to see and
understand what You mean by the constant creativity that makes every moment
unique. Help us realize this blessing for ourselves and for our friends.
Amen.

Nebadonia: Dear children, I heartily accept your welcome. And so, here I
am! This is your Mother, Nebadonia. This is My namesake for being the
Mother Spirit of the Local Universe of Nebadon out here on the fringes of
the seventh Superuniverse. I wish to extend a welcome back to you, to feel
yourselves members of this enormous family of our Local Universe. For all
of you within this realm have Michael and I as your parents. This makes you
all of a single family - from the Melkizadeks, Archangels, Seraphim, and
Material Sons and Daughters, down to you human souls who are so very
fortunate to be starting at the bottom - but only so-to-speak - because in
view of your potentially eternal personalities endowed with a spiritual
dimension of creativity, there is no top or bottom.

It is with a sense of playful irony that We say you are so fortunate because
you start from a barely visible physical being, a fertilized human egg that
will grow into a human body with which you will connect to the world around
you. Starting out associated with this miniscule speck of physical reality,
you have a childhood beginning with your birth, then on into an adolescence
and young adulthood that many higher personal beings do not have. Right
from the beginning you are given this opportunity to participate in the
fullness of your life that other beings, created as adults, miss. As this
becomes the origin and then the development of your soul, so this is an
eternal possession you will have with you forever. This is why some of the
higher beings, such as seraphim, look upon you with a touch of angelic envy
and so thoroughly enjoy the assignments of being your guardian angels.
Those who have not needed to exercise the same kind of courage that you have
as human beings, deeply reverence and honor what it sometimes takes for you
to get through your human days. So feel welcome to being a part of this
larger family surrounding you, who are aware of your struggles, your
suffering, your triumphs and defeats.

In this, My children, you are only as alone as you wish to be. As We have
assured you in these lessons, this too is a choice of yours - how alone you
want to be and feel yourselves to be. We would just note that, to prevent a
lot of unnecessary suffering on your part, you have to make a conscious
decision about this. Many of you have simply gotten into a habit of being
or feeling yourselves to be lonely and suffer enormously because it is not a
current, conscious choice. And if you are in this situation, it takes great
nerve to begin to explore all the many ways with which you can reconnect
with your fellows, and beyond them, open yourself to connect with Us, your
spiritual family. So if you feel yourself to be painfully lonely, take
heart that the ideal company you can imagine is possible for you. You are a
member of an enormous family and the realization of this is within your
power.

At the same time, there is what you might call a principle of privacy within
the spiritual realm. Spirit beings do not go where they are not invited.
This means that We self-limit ourselves to your choosing through the dignity
of your will. This why prayer is necessary if you wish Our help. You have
to sincerely ask for Our help before We can assist you.

As I mentioned before, a study of the Lucifer Rebellion demonstrates that it
is possible for even rather higher, and from a human standpoint, ancient -
very long lived beings with hundreds of thousands of your years time
measurement of experience, to actually deny the existence of God and choose
to go their own way entirely. So too this is a choice of yours, though I
would recommend that such choices be made consciously and then remembered
that you have so chosen. This way you can also remember to welcome Us back
into your life when you have thoroughly enjoyed your sojourn of feeling
alone.

You asked about what We mean by the constant creativity of not only our
Universal Father but all of his subordinate personal beings too, extending
down through Michael and I to Our children - including you. As you notice,
everything out here in time and space is in motion: energy and matter, mind,
and spirit. You live in this incessant change and only the very essence of
you - your personality - is not itself an object of perception. It is not
even anything you can hold as you hold a thought or realize a spiritual
value. One of your philosophies put it wisely as: the eye that sees but
cannot see itself. And so it takes a process of maturing for you to
realize: Here I am. I exist. I am real.

From this point of view, consider the phenomenal world around you. Most of
you who will initially hear or read My words of tonight are so thoroughly
immersed in recent scientific thought, you are so well versed in causality -
through time-lapse photography showing you seeds sprouting and growing into
mature plants, then blossoming, all in a few seconds - you sometimes fail to
credit a quality of immediacy or imminence in your eternal now. This is the
- purely phenomenal - world much as an untrained, very primitive human being
with no notions whatsoever yet of cause and effect, would perceive it. But
in your way you so thoroughly know how things come into being, you are so
familiar with this understanding you may discredit the phenomena itself.
You may miss the way God has so structured His creation that right within
His continuity of cause and effect there is a constantly unique happening.
Yes, the sun will come up tomorrow exactly when you might have
mathematically calculated it would fifty years ago, but no one has yet seen
this particular sunrise. Yes, this is a rose you are holding, recognizably
so, and you may know all of the steps it took to develop it to be this shape
and color and aroma, but that is not this particular flower you are holding
and sniffing this moment.

Consider that reality could be like a broken record, shortly repeating
itself over and over. You could still have motion and change. But as soon
as I introduce this bizarre notion, you immediately recognize this is not
the case. Your life’s moments are not repeating themselves over and over
except as an illusion you may be caught up in. This is Gods’ constant
creativity and it is somewhat plastic or open and amenable to your will.
This is most obvious when you choose very consciously to create something.
Of all the things you human beings are doing, your input is most obvious in
those creations you call art, which are intentionally unique.

Yet your creativity is nowhere limited to deliberate art, but in everything
you do from the time you get up in the morning, have your breakfast, then
head off to a day of work or leisure, you are constantly choosing and
adapting and creating. You are also encountering all the thousand and one
small choices of all the people around you. As you go down a busy two-lane
highway passing within a few feet of vehicles coming the other way at a
closing speed of a hundred miles an hour or more, think of how you are
trusting the total stranger coming toward you to make the right choice.
What an enormous, complex web of individual creativity and trusting it has
taken these thousands of years for the human race collectively to build up.

In some ways, My children, it is indeed very humorously ironic – or at least
We hope you can see the humor in the following. You have a saying that it
is hard to see the forest for the trees. You cannot see the whole forest
because you are bewildered by the maze of individual trees surrounding you.
In principle it means you cannot see the general situation – the forest,
because of too many specific items – the trees. See if you can understand
this saying as a kind of lesson for youngsters that many of you have learned
too well. For from the viewpoint of what I have talked about this evening,
the opposite is also true: you cannot see the trees for the forest. Now,
ironically, as mature and perhaps jaded or overly-familiar adults, with all
your notions of what a forest is, and how it came to be, you have difficulty
seeing the trees. Your haze of familiarity presents you with a mass of
generic vegetation called “trees,” or a group of persons called “people,”
and you are missing enjoying the unique individuals – trees or persons. So
We invite you, not to regress to some adolescent state, but to keep both –
the general and the specific – each in its proper place, for you need both.
Appreciate all the study and learning experience it has taken you to grasp
and recognize “out there” in the world so many general, and now familiar
principles, yet at the same time see with the eyes of a child the truly
phenomenal bursting of God’s infinitely diverse creativity into this present
moment. Then you will also know you are with Me, and Michael. Together we
will be sharing our vision, our love and peace, and our wonder as well.

If you have any questions or comments this evening, let’s see what they
might be.

Student: Mother, I find my ability to create quite a bit conditioned by
past experiences I’ve had which I believe are perfectly normal – or may not
be for all I know; but I have made decisions when preexisting urges seemed
to come up and then invalidated these decisions I’ve made about my life’s
situations. A lot of things I feel are determining my life are from the
past. Could You give me any more clarification on this, please?

Nebadonia: Yes, My son, you are understanding the situation here. The
judgements and assessments you have made in the past can have more influence
on you than the events themselves that they were based on. Part of being
human and, in so many situations, enhancing your ability to survive, is an
immediate evaluation of what has just happened to you. This is why We have
asked you to, in your meditative times, try to get beyond and before these
evaluations to re-experience moments of your life as they happened to you
originally. You will notice that your life happened in an eternal now which
was highly complex, even unfathomable, because it contained not only you but
all the world surrounding you as well. Whereas your evaluation of this
event had to be much more simple than this because its author, its creator
was only you. So to a degree this simplification is unavoidable: the
evaluation is not the event itself. Remember the detailed lesson We gave
you on Monday Morning Quarterbacking – that as soon as an event is past, you
may replace the complexity of it with an over-simplified version?

So first of all, My son, I would ask you to think deeply about this and get
a thorough understanding of why this happens, and to what degree this
evaluation is unavoidable, yet keep in mind the complexity of “now” in which
you yourself are playing only a small part of the entire reality which
surrounds you, the encompassing which is God’s doing. Can you see that what
you are feeling now is a kind of being pinched by these overly-simplified
notions of what life is?

Student: Yes, I can.

Nebadonia: You’re feeling righteously pinched when these previous
evaluations, these simplifications of reality and what is possible are
constricting your present moments which you are feeling, more and more,
should be open to your own creativity, your own sense of freedom. So first
you have to understand what these ghosts of the past are. In your
meditations, reach beyond and before them, tap into your soul and relive the
precious moments you’ve had in all the full, unfathomable complexity that
made them unique in their time. Do you know what I mean, My son? Can you
recognize when you are having a pure memory, with a certain essence, or
feeling, or flavor in it that is unmistakable, and you know that, for
however brief it is, you are truly experiencing a previous moment of your
life?

Student: I can see certain events in my life, and I can see the
interpretation I put on them, but as yet I am not able to see or
re-experience the event as it was. It’s too mixed up in the interpretation.
I can choose a positive or a negative interpretation, which makes it a
little easier to live with, maybe.

Nebadonia: Yes, but We are not suggesting you make yet another evaluation
so much as a rediscovery. As We have noted, one hallmark of the eternal now
is uncertainty with security. The security is in the sure and certain
knowledge of being a child of God. The uncertainty is in your ability to
imagine so many possibilities which might happen, before they are resolved
into the single one that does happen. So you might feel for this flavor of
uncertainty in the memory of some momentous decision you made once upon a
time – maybe to get married, or to move from one place to another – and see
if you can get close to that younger (Student’s name) who once was, and feel
the whole encompassing situation that surrounded you then.

Student: Thanks, Mother, I’ll do that.

Nebadonia: You will see how this certainty you have after the fact is
simply because that was what happened. Before the fact, then, you didn’t
know; and before the fact now, there are things you cannot know. So you
rightfully resent all these false illusions of certainty from the past
mocking you now, curbing your freedom, putting a haze of over-familiarity
over all the fresh, living surfaces of your world. Don’t forget, My son,
you can tear the veil apart in a moment by creating something new. You can
always arrest the past in a new creation.

Student: Yes. I notice that, in this conversation, uncertainty is not as
fearful as it was once.

Nebadonia: Yes, it’s just an awareness of being a living being, facing all
the possibilities you can imagine. Perhaps reread the last few lessons and
see if you can find the decisiveness you need to replace the ghosts from the
past. And be in My peace.

Student: Thank You, Mother, for Your love and understanding and support.

Nebadonia: Well, My children, I hope My examples this evening have given
you a new purchase, a new understanding of what We mean by this continuous
creation both within and surrounding you, yet why it may be difficult to
isolate so you can perceive it. There is nothing particularly wrong with
being so familiar with your lives except as it may kill your appreciation
for the very nature of the reality you find yourselves within. This
appreciation can alleviate to some degree the uncertainty you feel, and give
you a deeper sense of security in knowing reality was deliberately created
this way. Think what a hell it would be if reality were just a broken
record, repeating itself over and over forever. Now think of the enormous
expansion going on – physically, mentally, spiritually, and soulfully. We
invite you to share this joy that is Ours, not only in understanding the
concept of this profound and all-pervasive growth, but to actually
experience it within yourselves. And be in My love. Good evening.

Students: Good evening, Mother. Thank You.