11/24/2002

Ham: Greetings, children, I am Ham and I am happy that you have
decided to come this evening. We are grateful for your continuing
devotion to these lessons and to our teaching staff personally. You
have each decided to go through the painful process of change that
these lessons allow. No human being exists who is not in need of
spiritual regeneration, growth, and change. All people require help to
accomplish the process of gradual submission to their higher selves.

The ego mind stands ever ready with the assertion that you are right,
you are perfect, your are absolutely fine just the way you are, and
everyone else is mistaken. That is the ever present voice of fear in
your
mind. It is the basic animal fear which creates the need for always
defending what you perceive to be your self but which is just a position

or attitude. And, it is these attitudes and positions which must change,

which must be malleable and fluid rather than rigid like a fortress in
need of defense.

Think of yourselves rather as water in search of its natural level, its
ability to fill in and form into the container or natural bed in the
river.
This ability to allow change is very hard for human beings to grasp. All

humans create an illusion of themselves by contrasting their views,
opinions, positions to those of others and the personality or the will
invests in that illusion and thus must defend it which makes it even
more
real. But, all of these things are but temporary states of mind. The
mind
is not the personality, the mind is not the soul.

The personality will must overcome these tendencies of the mind by
surrendering to higher will or mind. The natural human mind rebels
against any submission, anything which takes away its authority. But, as

spiritual beings, you must recognize that this natural mind is mostly
driven by fear and so is constantly compensating and disguising its
fear.

You Urantia Book states that it is possible for your will, will that is
centered in your soul, to override the natural mind, the human mind and
to entrust the higher morontia mind which is a part of and in direction
connection with the indwelling spirit. When you favor this higher mind,
gradually, little by little, the fear dominated lower mind loses its
influence, its grip on the personality and gradually, little by little,
the
morontia mind comes to dominate the personality or perhaps that’s not
the right term, comes to infuse the personality with consciousness of
divine love, power, peace, and protection.

The higher mind is never fearful. That is your test. It is the lower
mind
which succumbs to fear and all its attendant illusions. The higher mind
is immovable. It is peaceful, and it is ever showing the way toward
personality change and unification. The more you can let go of the
lower mind and grasp the higher mind with you will, the less you will be

troubled by anxiety, sudden panic, overwhelming fears, and the more
you will have a steady peace, a reasonable optimism, and a quiet
confidence.

The ego mind may assert the illusion of confidence, but underneath
there is only churning fear and trouble. The God mind feels only
security and thus the confidence and peace exuded from such a God
knowing mind is real.

As you move gradually into this higher realm of thought, action, and
being, there are things which must be gradually left behind. One is
guilt,
another is avarice, another is shame, another is regret, For as your
lives progress, you understand that the Father is always giving and he
gives you what you need, just when you need it. There is no sense of
needing more. There is no sense of if only I had such and such, done
such and such.

For you come to see that throughout your life you have been using the
tools at your disposal to the best of your ability and in ways that the
Father already knew beforehand that you would do. And so, your life
has been a big lesson, journey, a journey take with the Father and his
constant giving. There is nothing then to regret, nothing to feel guilty

over, nothing to wish for because the best that could have been is right

now. Understand this, that you each are at the very best place you
could be right now and you all have just exactly what you need.

Find that peace with yourselves. Let go of that inner fear that you’ve
done something wrong, that you should have behaved differently in
some circumstance or other. The Father’s been with you all your lives.
He knew just how you would handle every situation at the time and all of

the accumulation of those decisions have brought you here tonight.

Is change painful? Of course it is. It’s never easy. If it was, it would
be
worth very little. Spiritual gains are worth everything. Everything else
in
life can be set down as a distant second to the value of spiritual
growth.
What creates growth more than difficulty? What causes the willingness
to change more than failure of what is now? There is no motivation to
move toward God if everything works just find with the ego mind and its
dominance. So yes, expect problems, expect failures, for these things
create the motivation and the ability for spiritual change.

Now, as we discussed this letting go of the lower mind and willfully
choosing and counsel and the thought process of the higher mind, this
is a long process but it can certainly be done. When you have the
opportunity to choose, which is all the time, try choosing that higher
mind and releasing the lower mind. The more you do this, the more you
will remain with the higher mind in peace, security, love, and
happiness.

That is my advice for now. What are your questions?

Q: Ham do you have a personal message for me please?

Ham: Of course, my son, you are willingly going through the painful
process of self-examination and self-honesty. The process is a long one
and being free from substances which allow free reign of the ego mind,
you are coming to understand the difference in reality between this ego
self and your soul. It is very hard to simply release that ego self and
embrace the childlike soul. But, that remains the true path. The ego
self
knows all the answers. The child soul knows nothing for certain. The
difference is the child soul is content with that but the ego self is
afraid
of that vulnerability. Difference is very clear, but it is not always so
within
the mind. Choose always that more vulnerable and yet higher path, the
one leading to God rather than self. To the best of your ability, make
that distinction and you will be fine.

Q: Do you have anything for Rebecca?

Ham: Yes, certainly, daughter you are finding that this line between the

fear driven self and the higher mind can be filled with pitfalls. As a
child
your family operate on guilt and fear and so you are easily convinced
by fear that you should feel guilty. This tendency must be overcome. In
order to remain within the realms of the higher mind you must decide,
whole heartedly, to abandon the lower mind with its attendant fear and
guilt syndrome. Whenever you feel this tendency to revert to these
feelings you must actively oppose it. As a child you passively took on
guilt continually and so you tend to revert to that natural state very
easily but I tell you now it is time to make a clean break of it and
this you
can only do by being mentally alert and watchful. Realize, my dear, that

you don’t need those things. You have worn guilt like a comforter, like
Linus’s blanket, something familiar which seems to be a comfort but is
actually very destructive. It is time then to release those things of
childhood and move into spiritual adulthood.

Q: Jarad?

Ham: Yes, my son, you do very well. You are also fighting old
tendencies and are being victorious. Your biggest enemy is the feeling
of not being worthwhile. Your family operated through varying balancing
mechanisms as to who was worthy of what. Your parents acted as
judges who constantly told you that you were coming up short and gave
you the sense of being not worth their energy and effort, not worth
their
love. So feeling unworthy of love you have been hampered and are
always drawn to that place where love is withdrawn, where you are
shown to be unworthy or love. But, you are making great strides and
are comfortable now with your self and your place in the universe, your
place in love. Be careful to reject that tendency to be drawn toward
feeling unloved. Accept, rather, the reality of being surrounded and
engulfed with love. Allow yourself to feel secure with love.

Q: I wanted to say that you said some stuff tonight in your lesson that
I
have been trying to get my plyers on for 20 years, about the mind and
all that.

Ham: The lessons are designed to give you each what you need. That
is my greatest reward to know that you are being given something you
need through my ministry.

Q: May I get some advice from you please?

Ham: Certainly. My daughter, you have from your childhood, the burden
bearer. The burdens that your parents refused to shoulder you took
upon yourself and this same tendency still continues. As you try to
move into spiritual realms of freedom, this seeming obligation to bear
the burden, pulls you back into that natural mind cycle of fear and
reaction. Being the burden bearer you are also responsible for every
one and so you continue to be drawn into these feelings and ways of
thinking because they are comforting and familiar. While this is going
on, you have another side that to balance this oppression goes for
other extremes and seeks freedom and deliverance from burdens. And
so, in this way you are going between extremes of crushing
responsibility to irresponsibility. Everyone has reactions to these
early
experiences and all these things are known by the Father and are to
him as predictable as the sun rise. Your main job right now is to get
out
of that cycle of the natural mind and instead choose the higher mind
which isn’t always completely obvious, it is a process. The higher mind
accepts what is and is a peace with it. The higher mind accepts the
world as it is and accepts your place within that greater world
completely. When you ask for help from the higher mind, you’re asking
for change, for growth, for new reactions to old problems and this can
only occur little by little. The mind is not like a door that the will
can
simply walk through. The mind is like a living breathing changing
melding flexible organ. There is nothing fixed, everything can be
changed. But, the change is within yourself, that is what leads to
peace,
tranquility, happiness. The ego mind convinces us that if circumstances
were changed, if other people were changed, if other people had not
taken certain actions and instead taken different actions, all these
things would bring peace and tranquility. But of course, that is not so.

It’s easy to know this in the mind, to see it, to understand it, but it
is
quite another thing to experience the actual change and to be growing
into your greater self because it requires leaving the smaller self
behind
little by little. And children, we are awfully fond of our small, little
selves.
The ego convinces us that if we could crystalize it just as it is, it
would
be the answer for every one. But the higher mind says no. The higher
mind says each one must find his or her own path with all its attendant
pitfalls and problems, all the things that are not under the control of
any
one person.



Q. This is pz Ham, and I have an intricate question. If you remember,
after our Dad's passing, almost 4 years ago, he left a wife, which in
fact
was our Aunt, our mothers youngest sister. My question to you at that
time, did our Dad pass over to the other side, and your answer was yes,
and he is now with his loved ones and our mother who passed 37 years
ago. This question is different, as his wife/our Aunt has moved out of
Dad's house, which has the siblings name on it, and into her daughters
home, which is out of this state. My eldest sister and only brother
visited
her and saw how unkept and thin she has become, she stays in her
bedroom with her two cats with their food on trays with ants crawling
all
over them and her only means of food is beer and cigarettes, which is
her choice. We as her nieces and nephew can't do anything for her,
and it appears her daughter doesn't do anything for her as well. She
has Life Estate in Dads home and wants to move back but doesn't have
the capability to do so. She left her best furniture there in Dad's home

and actually believes she will move back. If she does, there is no one
to
take care of her as I have a lung disease, and my brother has his own
business and is out of state for weeks at a time and his wife takes care

of their children. The other three siblings live out of state. This Aunt
is
79 and extremely weak. What can be done? Thank you for your prayers
and we pray for you as you do for us.

Ham: My dear, it is good that you are concerned for this woman who
means very much to you it is plain. Remember that you cannot control
what occurs in her life as she is making her own decisions. Her
daughter does care for her and is doing the best she can. It is best not

to create more problems by being too helpful. Everyone must find their
own way to the Father and it is best to withhold your human judgement
when you can. Be at peace with all these things and instead focus upon
your own spiritual growth along with your health. You are doing very
well, my dear. Let go of your tendency to worry so much.

Q: Liz H. wants a personal message and what is her spiritual name?

Ham: Yes, my dear, you are doing very well. You are finding a great
many opportunities for growth in the life you have chosen. Be at ease
as you move forward and make progress in the spirit and in life. Go
then in peace and be at ease as you do. Your spiritual name is not so
important as knowledge and awareness of your own spiritual growth. In
English your name sounds like Raymea or Raymela. Either way is very
close.

Q: Norbert would like to have a personal message.

Ham: Yes my son, be at ease for you do very well. You are someone
who takes life very seriously and you must remember to take time for
spiritual refreshment, laughter, rest, for your tendency is to deny
yourself these things at times. Be at peace and enjoy your life. You do
very well.

Q: Do you have a personal message for Charlie B?

Ham: Yes. My son, you have come very far, very quickly. Remember to
be gentle with those who are still behind you, who have not made the
progress you have made. Reserve judgment and be very loving and
forgiving of these people. Be careful not to adopt the role of teacher
during times when a friend is what is required. Be a good listener.

Q: Do you have any feedback for me this week?

Ham: Yes. My son, you do very well. You always find a way to make the
best of situations. You are always able to be supportive with others,
even when you don’t always agree with their decisions. This is a very
good character trait. Remember then to keep reaching for that higher
mind, that place of peace and perfect love. Be entirely at ease and
seize happiness in all the little things of life.

Be at peace and as always my love and my prayers are with you each.
Farewell.